Alright. So. Got a fair bit to get out. I’m in a bit of a mood. So here it goes.
Since starting TRT there has been many ups n downs.
My protocol has been changed many times and still haven’t even wrote on here, every single detail of it yet. 100% that’s reasoning behind alot of the little issues I have ran into along the way and already talked about.
Tomorrow is 6 weeks since I started TRT doses of AAS. It’s also about 5 weeks since I started hCG to recoup teste loss from 10 years ago.
I’ve always stuck to my 125mg of test a week. 62.5/62.5… Except when I took too much anastrozole a few weeks back. I had to combat it. I habe not taken any anastrozole since I sent Estradoil too low (very ugly feeling) no emotions lol.
I’ve done shit loads of different hCG doses and frequencies the past 5 weeks… My nuts are prob as good as they’ll get. I decided about 2 weeks back anymore large doses of hCG was unneeded.
I’ve felt the surging rush from Test.
Ive felt the low as feeling of crashing Estradiol.
Ive felt the high Estrogen spikes from large hCG shots. And everything in between.
I’d also been taking a thyroid supplement that was sending my thyroid into overdrive and making me feel uncomfortable in many ways.
To refer too my last posts. Stopping the thyroid supp has eased up the uneasy feelings coming from that.
And I restarted hCG again at 150iu E2D while on TRT.
Tomorrow is 6 weeks so I should organise bloods. But I’ve recently started a new job and am working 6 days a week atm. But I will get onto it as I’m suspecting, maybe, just maybe, my Test dose is too high for me. MAYBE.
The reason I’m writing this is. With the all ups n downs from everything n all the in betweens.
I’m still not 100% with my TRT yet.
There could be many reasons for this. But ill try and explain what I’m feeling.
For about 2 weeks now I feel either my body n mind are still adjusting to having lots of Test flowing around. And it is starting to get easier in a sense (if that makes sense.). But I’m still off. It’s not like before TRT. Or like any of the things I’ve done to myself like Low E, high E and thyroid supps sending it into overdrive.
Its just I don’t feel 100% or that great. I’m a bit sketchy. Like I’m high in a sense. That’s how I feel like I have too much seretonin and dopamine flowing around n it’s making me a little off chops/smacked out. I even look a bit funny and different and it reminds me of my drug days. My eyes are a little dropped, and I’m not really happy. Just meh.
There’s were times over the past 6 weeks where I felt good/better. But at the end of the day this feeling I have, has sought of always been there since starting TRT doses.
There’s probably shit loads more to delve into but yeah. Thoughts anyone?
I’ll try get bloods soon. Should I lower my T dose. Will my mind and body adjust to this soon and should I stick it out. I am.m confident and happy, it’s just I’m bit smacked out. Like off chops. But not in a fun way. Sought of like the day after feelings of good nights back in the day. If that make ms sense to anyone.
I’ve started a new relationship along w this new job. And I’m just not myself. Better more confident to a degree while on trt compared to before but still meh.
The last thing I’ll say and this is hard to admit, but, it could be because of my alcoholism from 18-29 yrs of age.
This new job and new relationship are the first I’ve done without alcohol in my life. And maybe I’m still adjusting to that too.
It’s been 4 months or more since I last drank alcohol. And I’ll never be going back. That’s a fucking sad life.
I’ve always been a very outthere, loud funny boisterous human. But when I look back now. Alcohol was also involved. (being you drink every afternoon)…
I felt I came out of it fine. And the past few months were good but thats when I knew something was a miss and had to get hormones in check from abuse of AAS 10 years ago that booze had just been masking.
So I’ve felt amazing on TRT and absolutely Fd from my own doing. BUT. Now it’s fairly stabilised I just feel I’m a bit skiddish. It feels like it’s from the T.
Has anyone else experienced this, lowered their T dose and felt amazing… Or on the other foot. It could me too low… But I highly frigging doubt it with the way I feel lol.
I can control it/myself my feelings. But I’m just a bit off my head. And I look a bit a smacked out. Not a good look for my new girl. So any advice appreciated. Thanks.