I honestly was hoping you were going to have a good or at least “easier” recovery.
Like I said, once you get into the actual post cycle/post PCT crash, most guys connect the dots and jump back on. Please understand this is a life altering choice. I know you were planning on doing it anyway and we’re taking a break to heal but the other guys reading this need to understand what this choice means. In plain English, it is a LIFE LONG CHOICE, basically.
In all honesty I myself only PCT’d a couple of times and hated it, then I said fuck this and started blast and cruise. So I say all this from the shoes of someone who is more like you than you think. Really since you had no intention of staying off and this was just for a recovery/healing type thing, I say going on a TRT dose doesn’t seem like that bad of a choice for you and your life. In all actuality that TRT dose might make you heal a little faster vs trying to heal with a no testosterone state.
When I say TRT type dose, I mean 100-150ish mgs per week of test enanthate or cypionate. Keep in mind you might have to play with the dose but really you just want enough to function, heal and not feel like a fat lethargic good for nothing.
I always try to gear my statements toward the younger or less experienced guys in the sense that I want them to understand the parts that other seem to leave out of their comments. You have given some updates about your situation and it sounds like TRT dose is something in your future. I would still urge you to update this thread a few more times for those young guys that still can not seem to make up their minds about starting or whatever. And putting in the parts about how good looking pieces of ass still want you but you just don’t care, that should get through to them before the whole health concerns part. Updates this until you do start the TRT (if you do) and then update it a couple more times after you settle into the dose. Let the new guys know what it is like to feel so helpless about just being a normal functioning person that makes class on time. The whole passing on young collegiate ass. The lower mental frequency, I know you are not getting dumber but you are getting slower mentally. Let those you g guys know so they can realize this sort of choice is for someone who can commit to a life long choice.
I guess I preach a bit but I am just all to conscious about how our love of AAS is portrayed in the media. What they make us look like. Then young ill informed guys think they know something after reading a couple of internet pages and go and make choices that damage themselves in a public manner. They make us look bad so I always assume I am trying to talk them out of trying a “one and done” experiment. But that’s me, an old head who doesn’t like it when one bad apple spoils the bunch.