So I finally find a great gf…and I go broke. I?m out of money. The stock market plunged and took everything I had with it. My job applications aren?t getting answered. I have an interview at a temp agency on Monday, and a temp job that pays 11/hr that starts December 2. That?s way too late. I?m out of money now and the rent is due in 6 days. I told Wendy I had heard back from some permanent jobs, but I just didn?t have the heart to tell her that I heard back from none of the 50+ places I?ve applied to, she?s just too sweet.
I have no one to ask for money, and I think I?d rather die than do that. I don?t even have enough money to buy a gun to shoot myself like a man is supposed to, or if I had a gun I couldn?t afford bullets. I?m not depressed, I?m just flat broke.
I don?t blame anyone else for these problems. My investments went bad, my career wouldn?t get off the ground, and my job applications don?t get answered anymore. If I?m 27 and this shit is happening, let?s be honest, there?s no bright future for me. I have that application into BC?s PhD program, but I have no money to actually make it to next September even if I get in. I have nothing of value to sell (car isn’t worth anything), and honestly, even if I did scrape together enough, what then? I?d have 0 dollars saved and even an oil change would send me broke. I have too much pride to live out of my car or in a homeless shelter, I’d rather die.