Ive spent almost 3 years on TRT now. Before TRT, my labs were
Lack of energy
Less libido than before
Physique was still good, I had ALOT of strenght, 180kg bench, 280kg deadlift, worked out naturally for 10 years.
After bullshitting with tons of different endos, I found one who finally put me on TRT.
Some crap gel, but it worked OK
Got my T up to 450ng/dl
Erections the same
Docs here dont give other than gel, so eventually I started my own TRT, I also started with testosterone cycles now, cuz I wanna continue build muscle, which is damn near impossible naturally, after 10 years of training.
For 3 years, Ive had huge ass problems with libido. Ive used doses up to 750mg of testosterone a week. With AI, with no AI, all kinds of protocols - once a week, twice a week, three times a week, EOD.
Last time with a reasonable high dose was 80mg test E, EOD, so about 280mg a week.
Finally, I started experimenting with small small dosages.
I did 10mg ED, and now things started happening.
For the first time in years, I finally got that “arousal feeling” back in my brain again, when I saw hot girls, this made my penor hard, however, it was still not ideal, or optimal, still struggling somewhat, so I continue to experiment.
I decided to increase to 15mg ED instead, Ive done that for the past 4 weeks.
SHIT SHIT, erections and libido gone again.
Its like my body cannot tolerate testosterone in even moderate doses, my libido dies, my erection goes to shit, I dont even think about sex, that “arousal triggering feeling” in my brain just turns off.
Soon, I will try like 8mg ED instead, or maybe even 5. I had libido on 10, best in years, I dont have libido on 15, so a very small dosage seems to be ideal for me.
Why the fuck is this? What kind of specie am I, are some people just genetically programmed not to “need” high testosterone, and when they get it, their system goes sperg mode and stop functioning?