Ok, so I'm 27. For the things I like to do in life that's ancient. I know it's young biologically. But I'm not happy. I'm starting to look creepy going to college nights at clubs.
I'm one of my last friends drinking pints of gin every friday & saturday. But I like it. I just have no friends to do it with because they're all married. I'm so lonely. But I don't know what to do with the rest of my life.
THere's nothing left for me. I know I know...do shit you like and meet people that way...but the thing is...no one my age does the shit I do. THey all have careers and are driven and attract like minded people.
I was always afraid of ending up like those 28 or 29 year old people with no job or career and sitting around drinking and still 'partying' and being 5 years older than everyone at the parties they go to.
Guess what I am now? I had so much potential. I was taking junior level college courses by the time I was 17, and now 10 years later I've actually become what i never wanted to be. Now apparently my student loans are going to come due soon and I have no money.
I'm not sure I see many ways out of this. I don't have a way to earn enough money to cover loans and basic living expenses. I was doing well with stocks and then the market crashed and I lost 95% of my money. I started with a few hundred bucks and worked my waaaaay up.
I was thinking about buying my mom a car, and even a house down the road. Now it's all gone, I have no career, no way to get one, no way to afford any grad school I'd have to pay for, no woman, no friends left really.
Anyway, gin was on sale again so i bought a couple liters for 12 bucks and I'm drinkin it tonight so I thought I'd post here because I have no one else to talk to.
craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawling in myyyyyyyyyyyy skin, etc.