I found a “TRT test” through walkinlab(dot)com, which allows me to get tested at LabCorp without the need for a doc prescription. It includes a Complete Blood Count, PSA serum total, and Testosterone Free Direct with Total Testosterone.
After lurking here for a bit though, I’m aware that I might want to test other things, such as E2 levels, SHBG, FSH, LH, maybe some thyroid stuff, etc…
For a bit of background, I’m 38 and have been feeling terrible for the last 2 years after a devastating divorce. At 35 I tested at 800 ng/dl Total T and average BioAvailable T (Free T was not tested, it was in Europe). I had great sex drive (could stay hard during sex for over 2 hours, super strong morning wood, etc…) and felt pretty good physically at that time.
I think depression has fucked my levels up. I thought I could get out of it naturally and have been eating great, no drugs, no drinking, no coffee, doing meditation/yoga and working out 5 days/week cardio + weight lifting, but I still feel terrible and unmotivated. The only way I manage to keep doing all those things is purely out of discipline and willpower, but nothing is enjoyable and doing anything feels like moving a mountain. I can’t muster genuine interest in anything, and life just feels like different shades of grey. I’ve also lost morning wood and sexual interest despite never watching porn or jerking off, and doing kegel exercises daily. Basically at this point I’m just dragging myself through life every second of every day, and on certain days I spend a decent amount of time questioning whether I should even stay alive.
I don’t want to touch anti-depressants, but I’m thinking TRT might help me regain some taste for life.