k awesome solid week of lifting pour moi
135lbs x 6
155lbs x 6
165lbs x 6
175lbs x 2 sets of 6
felt really good
165lbs x 4
185lbs x 2 sets of 4
paused bench press
100lbs x 4 sets of 5
really good, respectable pauses and good bar path
barbell split squats
65lbs x 12
75lbs x 10
85lbs x 8
single leg ext
two sets of drop sets if that makes sense
50lbs x 6, 40lbs x 6, 30lbs x 6
40lbs x 8, 30lbs x 8, 20lbs x 8
120lbs x 12
140lbs x 10
170lbs x 10
105lbs x 12
x 12, x 12
step mill intervals x 20 minutes
SO , i was really excited to weigh myself today because I felt pretty good about how my body looked in the mirror and wow, it was 130.2lbs
UP SO UP
WHY U KEEP GOING UP ?!
But the bigger question, why does it keep going up but I dont even know where it’s going because I dont hate anything yet, LOL!
SO here is it
I am not wigging out about weight gain and/or actually caring about it even though I promised myself i HAD to care about it and maintain it because it’s not going to horrible places that bother me.
On the blue pant side i am like 123-124, today I am over 130lbs so 6lbs up and I can honestly say I in NO WAY prefer the way I look on the blue side and I am totally okay with how I look on the black side. I dont really like that my thighs pull down my pants when I wear the blue ones now (LOL), but in THIS mOMENT the scale is not negatively impacting how I feel about my body .
That is to say why should I feel guilty when I am not doing anything that warrants guilt? I eat healthy, i walk every day on my lunch break , sun or snow, I work out 4 times a week , even if a 330am wake up time is overwhelming, i only have one , homemade cheat a week, I AM DOING FINE.
I also like my life right now and being 125 or 130 has ZERO affect on that.
All these rules and regulations I created for myself when I was depressed in order to achieve happiness no longer make sense to me, but that’s a very good thing