Ok so story time kiddies
I was debating whether or not to post this in my log for fear of judgement, but what they hell, it’s consuming my brain so here it is :
ALSO TMI, you’ve been warned…
Since starting my job my periods have become hugely fucked up. I dunno if it’s the stress or the 3am wake ups, or both, but I am anywhere between 10 days and 3 weeks late for every period. My PMS, however, starts at the time it’s supposed to and lasts until the period actually comes. Which means I am essentially getting PMS for like a month at a time. It builds and it builds, the night sweats, the crazy thinkings, the boob pain, the cramps ALllllllll of it. Until finally it reaches a peak and i get the fucking thing and I can breath again for a while.
Many of you know my PMS is severe and it affects me a great deal. On Monday (15 days late), i could tell my brain was going haywire. I was getting suicidal thoughts and pains and all this other shit and I knew that on tuesday I wasn’t going to be able to function. I texted my boss and said i was having hormonal problems that were concerning me, i wasnt feeling well, I felt like I should go to the doctor. He told me he didnt really know what to tell me, get my shift covered, call other clubs etc etc.
Ok, so i already tried to do that. I said why am i the only person who needs to get their own sick day covered? (Keep in mind this is literally the first time ive ever called in sick here, so its not like a reocurring thing.) He told me he was just getting me to trouble shoot.
I kept saying i dont feel well , i can’t do this. My emotional state at this point was shot, and I was in the back office crying .
He then called and bascially accused me of lying. It’s curious how you already know you’re going to be sick tomorrow. WTF YOU HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE GIVE NO NOTICE
and OOO it so happens it’s on the day of the meeting
WHy didnt you go to the doctor on saturday ?
IM SORRY I WASNT HAVING WEIRD DISCHARGE AND SUICIDAL thoughts that day i didnt think to do so
WHY AM I BEING TALKED TO LIKE THIS
I am an outstanding employee
never late never sick i go above and beyond for every fucking member there and in our contract we are entitled to mental health days and I, for some reason, am now allowed this right ?
then he said i could come in and open and then leave when he gets there OPEN IS BEFORE 5AM
WOuld you tell a person with the flu to get up insanely early ?!
WEll now I have to come in for 5am he complains
and its a busy day for me
ON THE PHONE WITH ME BAWLING My EYES OUT he is bitching about DOING
IM sorry if my horrible mental state is at an inconvienent time for you
ill schedule my complete and utter breakdown on a different day
YOU ARE accusing me of bullshitting something I have dealt with for YEARs to get out of a meeting that ive never once before missed!
Not only the non stop crying, but the other painful symptoms as well.
Someones it feels like there’s a brick sitting in my fucking bowls before my period and the pain has been so bad it’s made me PUKE
AND One time it made me pass out
IT is horrible
I Just needed a day to curl up and die and I was denied that
SO more of him being awful on the phone i swore at him and stormed out and quit.
SO that was my day and my week and my period still hasnt come and this is just the most awful brain fog fucked up feeling ever.
Management is also lying to other staff saying i needed time off so i quit. TIME NOT MENTIONING TIME MEANT A FUCKING SINGLE DAY .
i am so PISED OF
but the management has always been a problem there, i havent divulged too much , but a lot of us have gone to HR and nothing gets done.
In half a year we have lost about 13 people
someone else walked out mid shift 10 days before me
someone else quit on the wednesday after me walking out on the monday
THE PLACE IS A SHIT SHOW AND IA M SO MAD I WAS TRERATED LIKE THASTHJSKHFJDSKGHDKJS