[quote]LiftingStrumpet wrote:
Those forearms veins![/quote]
OMG I KNOW!! SO XXXxxciting !!
[quote]strongmanvinny wrote:
You’ll have to dive in and take a chance girl. You’ve got vehement discipline - nothing to lose, and everything to gain. [/quote]
I know, and I agree for the most part, but here’s my issue(s):
I was reading stuff online and some people said judges don’t like tattoo’s.
I have some, WHICH I HATE, could affect my placing.
I also had lose skin from pregnancy, WHICH I HATE, could affect my placing.
I also have a birthmark on my ass (mole), WHICH I HATE, could affect my placing.
So essentially all the things I hate about myself could be judged and viewed negatively by others, thus reinforcing my beliefs that these things are fucking awful and vomit-inducing.
I would care about my placing, first show or not. How badly would my self esteem be effected if others judged that which I hate about myself…
Anyway here’s some shoulder work:
Cable one arm Rear delt fly SS two arm rear delt fly
2nd pin/1st pin
x 15arm/30
x 15arm/30
x 15*arm/30
Military press SS plate raise
75lbs/25lbs
x 6/20
x 6/20
x 6/20
x 6/20
drop set military press
65lbs x 5 + 1 push press
55lbs x 8 + 2 push press
hammer strength iso lateral shoulder press
facing seat way
25lbs per side
x 12, 11, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6 **arm
Notes: I had to do extended sets + extra reps on my shitty weak left arm to equal the same reps as I could do on the right
cable lean away lateral raise SS lean away DB lateral raise
1st pin/7.5lbs
x 12/12
x 12/12
x 12/12
cable bar front raise pull through SS cable upright row (close grip)
3 triple drop sets of each so
front raise : 15lbs x 8/10lbs x 8/5lbs x 10
upright row: 30lbs x 8/25lbs/8/20lbs x 10
Front raise: 15lbs/8/10lbs x 8/5lbs/12
upright: 30lbs x 8/25lbs x 8/20lbs x 12
front raise : 15lbs x 8/10lbs x 8/5lbs x 15
upright: 30lbs x 8/25lbs x 8/20lbs x 15
bent arm lateral raise machine
30lbs x 15
50lbs x 6 + 2 + 2 *extended
30lbs x 15
20lbs x 15 partials
lateral raise SS rear DB fly
ramped
7.5lbs
x 12/12
10lbs
x 10/10
15lbs
x 8 + 20 partials/8 + 20 partials
20lbs
x 20 partials/20 partials
25lbs
x 20 partials/20 partials
30lbs x 20 partials/20 partials
tricep dip assist machine thing
x 12
x 8
x 8
triangle tri ext drop set
x 8/8/8/8/8 + 8 partials + 8 holds
tricep kick backs
7.5lbs
x 2 sets of 10 *arm
step mill intervals x 20 minutes
K good.
I decided as long as my workout has passion, then it’s a good workout.
If I can remind myself to hurt at least once throughout, I’ve done my duty.
Dream:
Today, in real life, I am going to see a counsellor. In my dream I told the counsellor that I no longer feel like an actual human being, but just a walking/breathing disorder.
Not a person
An ailment
I exist only to worry, obsess, stress, etc…
Never to just simply be.
I am scared to go… I have been thinking up how to get out of it all week, but now I’m half an hour away…
Anyway, today is day 21.
BEY
BYE