Yes, the bar is really stiff compared to the bar at the local gym. At the local gym I can pull with awesome speed because it isn't so stiff and I can pull the slack out of the bar and load the hamstrings well.
Yeah mentality might play a role because i haven't lifted max effort for 2 weeks due to bench press competition and being ill for one week. Honestly, my mentality was off during the few past days. I did the mistake of planning and thinking about my workout way too much in advance, which caused me stress and I felt tired when I tried to approach the bar.
When i go to the local gym i'm extremely focused and calm and once the lift is there i just go to town on it. Today i just crawled to my own gym thinking this and that and just thinking i'm going to pr with that poor mindset, i didn't have the anger and the emotion today.
I really appreciate this reply I actually learned alot of these mistakes. Thanks alot!