So I posted awhile ago about ultram and just wanted to tell a little about what happened to my life after almost a year abusing it. I know theres a lot of people out there who take it because its cheap, it works, and its easy to get. Unfortunately it can be nearly impossible to stop, the withdrawals are equal to those of heroin/vicodin… I started taking them for soreness and as a sleep aid. It quickly spiraled into a full blown addiction.
I was taking between 30-40 50mg tablets a day. Drs were amazed i hadnt had a seizure. I know people also use this drug as an anti depressant… it definitely makes you feel good but the doses need to be increased often for it to stay effective. Anyway… so I was sleeping for 16 hours straight, I stopped working out b/c i would get violently sick if i excercised… i couldnt nut if my life depended on it. it took me 5 minutes to take a piss. i lost 40 pounds within 6 weeks…it was a very ugly time.
i tried to stop more than once but the withdrawals were torturous and i was ahsamed i couldnt do it on my own. i finally decided enough was enough and went for help. it took awhile to get the ball rolling but once i knew there was help i knew my life was finally going to change for the better. after 48 hours without ultram i was going thru pretty extreme withdrawals and my dr gave me a drug called suboxone. within 15 minutes releif was there. it was truly amazing.
i was sweating, aching everywhere, extreme anxiety, i couldnt stop moving and then after letting the tablets dissolve under my tongue it was almost total releif. this rambling story has a point… if you are abusing this shit, or if youre using opiates more and more often dont let it get out of control. and if youre already out of control get help. i never imagined detox could be his painless. the hard part is coming up though, and thats staying clean and staying in therapy. so if any of this sounds familiar get help. thanks for reading