I have been on zoloft for 6 months for ocd 10 months ago. It made me suicidal and i quit almost cold turkey, my doctor told me to do that. After that i went through a horrible withdrawal. Its now 10 months ago i took the last pill. I still feel tired all the time, no libido, no confidence, anhedonic and feel like shit. I did my bloodwork and recieved it today. My free trt is 22.59 indexwise My SHBG is 112,400 nmo/l. my normal testosterone is 25,390 nmo/l. Also my progesterone is high 5,4 nmol/l . My gp says everything is fine but i dont believe that to be honoust. I did boron a while ago for a week and i finally felt normal again. After a week it didnt work anymore sadly. Boron is known to lower shbg so that explains a lot. I feel like shit everyday and i want it to stop. I am scared i have pssd, post sexual dysfunction after ssri which can be permanent. All the guys at the pssd forum report an elevated progesterone too.I have everyting pssd is, and i just don’t want to live this life anymore. For me the trt has to do something to this feeling of disconnect with everything or i am done for. It has now been well over a year of feeling like absolute shit due to this medicine, and i am scared it is permanent. What do you guys advice? Is my free t low? is my normal t low or high? All tips and other opinions are appreciated!