Somtimes ive been accused of being "panicked" about the whole situation, but I think i am very worried for good reason. See , i can see TRT being a good option when youre 50 years old.. but at 26 I am really concerned. Currently baseline T is about 350.. i have A MILLION symptoms of low t, horrible ED, terrible sleep, inability to build/weak muscles, high body fat percentage that i cant lower despite diet/exercise, chronic inflammation/ gum disease (look it up, its linked), weak joints, just like.. everything and its uncle.. my life is totally unbearable.
I have secondary hypo, i know this because Clomid works to raise my T levels, even very low dose like 6mg twice a week will raise my levels into the mid 600s.. problem is.. clomid gives me horrible vision sides, floaters, the whole deal, so bad its scary, even at those doses. So its like, i cant take clomid at all, Nolvadex for some reason fails to raise my T to normal levels taking it 2.5 mg 2 -3 time a week, i can only get to the high 400s, and im not getting the same symptomatic relief as with clomid.
HCG mono seems awful, its expensive, must be refrigerated, must be injected every day, is perishable and loses potency quickly, best ive heard it being described as a "ball and chain", basically would stifle any freedom I have in my life to travel, meet new partners, how can I meet a new female, come to her house, and ask to keep my HCG injections in her fridge so my dick doesnt fall off the next morning.
I would LOVE to go on TRT/HCG combo. I say HCG combo because I know with TRT HCG only needs to be injected like twice a week instead of daily, Also TRT can be injected twice a week and can be done in same injection, that would bring me down to just two injections a week, and if i happen to miss the HCG one time it wouldnt be the end of the world. This i feel would give me sufficient freedom to go and live life.
Problem is, Im only 26, and I am absolutely unwilling to sacrifice my potential fertility. I want to have children, always wanted to, and due to my life progress, i dont want to have any till after 35, absolutely no way i can have any any time soon. Also, I am afraid that if my current levels are 350, if i go on TRT for a few years, If anything ever happens where i need to come off, even temporarily, after years of testicular inactivity, it would make me in fact "primary" and my new permanent baseline would be like 100, and I would literally be unable to even barely live without TRT at all at that point.
What are thoughts on this fertility, TRT/HCG combo, doing it for 10+ years and still wanting to have kids? Also i know things like Androxal are still pending in Europe, and new things might come out in the next 10 years, I wouldnt want to make myself primary and then never be able to benefit from those things when they arrive. Also I dont want to destroy my freedom/quality of life by going on HCG mono, primarily i feel like this would make having a healthy adventurous life and sex life of a 20s man impossible, going from fridge to fridge needle to needle every single day.
Please help with any input/suggestions. Yes im negative about the whole thing, but why shouldnt I be, my predicament sucks. I did all my labs, everything comes out normal except that I have low T, im 95% sure this is from a head trauma I had when i was born, I had low T symptoms my whole life, but now in my mid 20s my body is really like, fuck this ive had enough, and my symptoms have gotten much worse. Please give me any insight/ suggestions. Thank you guys.