Hey guys, I have had awful luck with TRT my last two tries so I decided to make a log this time so that maybe I can figure out what is preventing me from being successful on this program.
I am 26 and weight 264 lbs (6’4") at somewhere around 18-20% body fat. I have worked out heavily since I was 16. I did one steroid cycle when I was around 21 years old but did not do labs to support a successful pct. When I graduated a year later I began to feel much more anxious and not like myself. This led me down a long road of doctor visits, and at this point I have had just about everything tested.
My first attempt at TRT was a little over a year ago at one of the shoot you in the butt clinics. I made it about 3 months. I stopped because without failure, for about 5 days after each shot I would feel tremendous anxiety, hot flashes, heart racing, heart palpitations (even had a 20 minute bout of A-fib which I had never had before), and high blood pressure. I started on 120mg Test Cyp 1x per week IM along with 2000iu HCG in the same shot (and .5mg Adex). Needless to say being a paranoid freak for this three months did not help me at work and I ended up quitting as my fear of further heart problems became too much. My dosages were changed several times during this period, so bear in mind that may have had something to do with it.
My second attempt was a few months later, and this was stopped quickly because again, I could not handle the anxiety. Something about the shots triggered terrible heart pounding and depersonalization that I just could not handle, as I started right after a terrible break-up.
After coming off using Clomid, my levels went back to about 450 ng/dL Total and around 12ng/dL free. I convinced myself that I felt better, however I really just felt awful again without the heart problems. I saw a Cardiologist, who ran an ultrasound and determined that my heart is perfectly healthy. I also saw an endocrinologist, who measured my T levels at 500ng/dL, which was the highest it has ever been since I began testing. I had morning cortisol, ACTH, thyroid hormones, vitamin D, CBC, all tested and everything came back very much within range. However, my libido was still utter garbage and is continuing to cause me relationship issues. I don’t have erectile dysfunction but I have almost zero sex drive. Girls don’t really appreciate this. On top of that, I was still not making any gains at all in the gym. In fact, my arms have been growing continually skinner while my belly grows. This has led to extremely low self confidence, as I used to be the “jacked” guy just a few years ago and although I am working out just as much I do not look anywhere near like what I did. It is so bad people have begun asking me why I don’t workout anymore. This sucks.
After about a year of dealing with the above, I went and got my testosterone checked again, as symptoms are only getting worse. What do you know, my level is now 265 ng/dL, measured at 10:30 in the morning on two separate occasions. I have decided that I cannot handle the low T issues so I may as well try and make TRT work for me.
In order to solve the heart racing issues, this time around I am using 140mg Test Cyp per week, however I am injecting it subcutaneously at 20mg/day as I have read on this forum that some people with my same issues had better luck with this protocol. My sperm is frozen and hcg causes heart rate issues for me as well, so I am not using that for now. My urologist has agreed to add in Adex if my estrogen tests high on this protocol. In the meantime, I had ACTH and cortisol measured again, along with a full iron panel as those are the only things I have not tested. I have posted the results for these (and my other pre-TRT labs) below:
Iron Bind Cap (TIBC) 351ug/DL Range:250-450
UIBC 289 ug/DL Range:111-343
Iron 62 ug/DL Range 38-169
Iron Saturation 18% Range:15-55
Ferritin,Serum 84 NG/ML Range:30-400
Morning Cortisol 14.2 mcg/DL Range:4.0-22
Morning ACTH 22 pg/ML range: 6-50
Testosterone 212ng/DL Range 300-1000
256 ng/DL Range 300-1000
CBC Normal, only other issue was borderline high LDL
Negative for any Thyroid antibodies (peroxidase and one other I can’t remember)
T4 Free1.11 Range .90-1.90
Hemoglobin A1C: 5.1 Range 4.2-5.6
Vitamin D Screen: 40 Range: 30-100
Estradiol (not sensitive): 37.1 Range <60.7 pg/ML
Anyways, I started this log late, as my first 20mg subq injection was on 8/8. I have done one daily in my abdomen including today.
I can’t say that I’ve felt any difference so far, but I am optimistic that subQ will work for me as IM just seems to cause too many issues.
I am taking vitamin k, vitamin d, iron (advice on this needed, I am doing this based off of my labs where my iron saturation seemed to be quite close to below normal), a multivitamin, injectable b complex, b12 sublingual, ashwaganda, magnesium, vitamin C, and pregnenolone 50mg per day.
Anyways, third time is a charm! At this point, getting this fixed is no longer an option. I need my sex drive back and I need gains. And need my heart to beat normally while I do it. I am nervous but doing my best to remain optimistic. I will update in a week or so once I start feeling changes. In the meantime, feel free to ask questions or offer advice as I am always open to it.