So it turns out that I am not superwoman.
Last month, March 10th, I injured myself whilst doing US Army Combatives. Go figure! That never happens.
I got my MRI results last week, and have been doing physical therapy for about 2.5 weeks.
After a few short weeks since the injury, I noticed major muscle atrophy in the quad of my damaged knee, and it freaked me out really bad.
To add to that, since the injury I have slipped into an awesome(sarcasm) depression consisting of drinking every day, and not training at all, hating myself, and getting fat. While this has happened, I have managed to lose at least 7 pounds. Which to me, is upsetting, seeing as I had spent the 7 solid months before that on a committed bulk, that I found to be successful.
I now have lost strength, size and muscle. I will be seeing the orthopedist soon, so see what my fate shall be regarding surgery, or not.
I now have 4 weeks until we go on vacation to North Carolina, the Outer Banks, for my little sisters wedding.
I will be wearing a brides maid dress, and obviously a bikini. I feel nowhere near ready to do either.
I am going to try to diet, and work my ass off to try and get my body and mind right before then.
I also realize that I should have and could have done much more in the way of ‘pre-hab’ to have prevented an injury in this nature.
I don’t believe in beating myself up over the past, however I do realize my own demise, and will learn from this and change the way I train in the future.
I am currently on a 3 month long profile from doing almost any physical activity. However I can bike without any pain, I can jog lightly, as long as I am careful and wear my brace, and I can row, lightly.
I can’t do any compound movements with any useful amount of weight, because it puts to much strain on my knee.
I am anxious, and nervous at the same time.
There is nothing good about an ACL tear, and I know that it will be my bane for the rest of my life.
I’m going to try and stay positive, and pull myself out of this hole I have sunk in to.
That is my story, I just felt like sharing.
Anyone who has a similar story, or feels like contributing, feel free.
I wanted to share my story with you because I have been recovering from a major knee injury.
In December I dislocated my knee, tore my ACL,PCL,LCL, IT band and apparently my medial meniscus folded over itself. My leg had no stability what so ever, I had tripped over a curb while sprinting and when My friend got me up, He told me to walk it off, I knew something was seriously wrong but I figured maybe I was being a wimp and attempted to walk, my lower leg gave out to the side as if nothing was holding it there.
my friends drove me directly to the emergency room from there. I don’t want to make this post to large so I apologize it does, but they misdiagnosed what was wrong with my knee, because it popped back into place before this so called doctor could look at it (he said it might be a patella dislocation) I ended up having to go to another hospital because my knee dislocated again the next day.
This hospital was better and the Orthopedic Surgeon that was called in proceeded to relocate my knee and test it (basically move it around to see which ligaments were torn) This was a horrible experience as you can probably imagine. I learned that morphine doesn’t do crap for pain compared to what I was expecting.
When he got the MRI a week later his prognosis what spot on. I do understand your feelings towards your doctor, I have come to understand that most of them are arrogant/confident by nature, but I think you have to be in order to do surgery on someone.
I had surgery a little over a week later. They were extremely conservative with me after surgery. I was in an immobilizer for 2-3 weeks before I started any PT. After that the next month we were not allowed to be aggressive in PT. During this time scar tissue built up (which was their intention in order to gain stability) to the point where when it came time to be aggressive my range of motion was terrible I couldn’t bend my knee more than 60-70 degrees.
I ended up having to get a knee manipulation about 10 weeks after surgery. This ended up working out well as I gained a lot of range of motion from this alone. Unfortunately this was extremely painful in PT, My knee could bend but it had swollen up so large and it felt like my quad was destroyed. I had to bite on a towel while my PT bent my knee, This was the most painful experience of my life.
Now I am almost 5 months out from surgery and my range of motion is almost to where it needs to be.
I am walking around without a limp for the most part and am trying to get back in the gym.
My PT just told me that I don’t have limitations on what I’m allowed to do as long as I start slow and am not in pain. I still plan to get the OK from my surgeon before I start doing weighted leg exercises.
Unfortunately I lost 35 lbs of mostly muscle, but I look forward to making gains again.
From what PTs have told me, ACL reconstruction is very routine now, and recovery is much faster than what I went through.
My advice would be to find the best, most highly recommended Surgeon you can if you choose to get the surgery.