Yo, Brother! QUIT SMOKING THAT SHIT!! If you inherited more-or-less normal (or superior) genetics, it's easy to moralize about how virtuous it is to be a "natural athlete," attract suitable female companionship, and live a happy life. For some of us, none of that is an option, and we do what we need to do to get our bodies all-the-way-up to mediocre. Personally, I lifted hard and "clean" for 14 years and had damn little to show for it. A little juice made a big difference. "Artificial beats natural." End of story.