Aptitude drove interest for me. I went to a Catholic high school as a non-Catholic and exited as the top theology student in my school. When looking for degrees from there, I had no interest in a religious oriented career, so I picked the next closest analogue to me (political science). Honestly no real interest in politics, but it was again something that came naturally to me. Never really care for philosophy while I was IN school, but now it’s something I read out of interest.
I always revered science, thought it was cool, just couldn’t wrap my brain around it. I feel it’s my aptitude towards the soft stuff that gets in the way of the hard stuff. I keep wanting to ask “why” and keep getting told that, at one point, it just is because it is, and that’s unsatisfying to me.
“This is the mitochondria”
“Why that? What not something else?”
“It’s just what they decided was the mitochondria. That part’s not important.”