Unfortunately, I took a T cream the doctor offered me without delving into the ins and outs of TRT. I may have the option of not being in this for life, but I know a lot of you guys are and I'm interested in hearing your perspective.
TRT has been pretty good for me. Although, having adrenal fatigue hasn't made things perfect I believe I've experienced having levels of testosterone that I wouldn't have ever gotten to ever in my life:
- people have told me I look a lot more like a man now (bone density, I've 'filled out', aside: my skin is clearer)
- people seem to take me a lot more seriously/respect me more
- it's helped me a lot at work
- it's helped with stress resilience
- I like how it feels in my body, like a certain intensity and a certain focus
- I like how at times I have a lot more focused, structured, thinking instead of my default state of following my intuitions
It's helped me in a lot more ways. I feel like to some extent I had a social persona constructed around not having high T. I had all the characteristics of someone with low T and it's interesting reading about the social effects of this hormone.
The current working hypothesis KSMan and I came to is 'adrenal fatigue', but there's this whole other side to it of feeling virilized to a point where I never was before. I don't know if the implications are that there is some other reason I may have never had high T or that I've had stressful circumstances for so long my T levels could never get up there - I've had genetic testing done which has told me that certain mutations in serotonin transporter and certain enzymes make me highly sensitive and especially to stress.
These are all factors in this decision. And I know some of you have faced it. I feel like on the surface of things someone who is 24 should not be on TRT. But it's given me a glimpse of someone who I could be.
Additionally, I feel like I'd be signing up for being a guinea pig for bio identical hormones starting at a young age. AFAIK, the current understanding/knowledge of things isn't super robust.