First off dude, you've done a great fucking job.
You have a good shape to you, and you could go very far in the game, IMO, once you really learn your body.
Whatever gave you that fire, thank it. A lot of people will never understand. Feel lucky.
Fucking heavy. (i'll explain in a min.)
Who gives a shit.
I am in no position to answer diet questions
But to my point. Don't worry about your strength:weight. Just worry about getting stronger. Don't stress your ratios of lifts to each other. Just make sure you are getting stronger everywhere. Hit all muscle groups, and make sure you are getting stronger everywhere.