Jelly and I were discussing this…
2 months ago I tried to get a cycle of test going. But it never got off the ground. I have all the right pins etc. Got a vial from my guy.
I took one shot and then right after I tasted oil in my mouth. I thought woah way to psyc yourself out. But then when I took my second shot after 3 days same thing.
At around 4 days after my first shot I could feel something kick in. Then anxiety started to grow. It felt like I was standing on the edge of a building looking over it. That weird feeling in your feet. Cept this was all the time. I just told myself nothing to worry about and decided to just ride it off and get some feed back from people here. I made the choice to discontinue the dosing since it was so early in the process. This was very unpleasant and I had to get some lorazepam just in case I could not handle it or sleep.
Another thing was that I was giddy and way too happy. Like almost being intoxicated but not. I also would have a hard time letting small things go. And I would tend to hold on to them longer then normal. And get worked up about it. I became very very forgetful. I could not remember to do the things I was suppose to.
I realize var is a weaker drug but I never experience anything like this. If I was pissed about something I had control and was able to just let things go with a deep breath. And no anxiety …just lots of good energy and strength. Confidence and ladies tend to look at you lots when your ozing t from your body.
So my question is …WTF happened?