My history is documented in this thread - https://forums.t-nation.com/t/looking-for-a-uk-based-urologist-endo/212318
So, things were going ok, I wasn't taking any TRT or using clomid or armimidex. I was managing to lose weight (Managed to lose 10% of my body mass), exercising regularly, then something stressful happened (wife had a miscarriage) and the exercise went out of the window and I started to feel sluggish again.
My wife and I are looking to go for another round of IVF, so after talking with some consultants they suggested I take tamoxifen at 20mg a day to see if it can help boost sperm count. I had the drugs for a few months before I decided to take them as I was apprehensive as I generally felt pretty crap (emotional and tired) on clomid and arimidex.
However, this is where it got a bit unexpected.... I took the 20mg of tamoxifen and within about an hour I had a raging erection, the next morning I had morning wood and my balls had swollen up to about double their previous size, I felt good, I had a sex drive, a strong one and sex felt amazing... this feeling lasted about 6 days, it also brought with it an amazing feeling of happiness as I've suffered from depression since I was 18, it was a lovely feeling, a bit like someone had turned the lights on. Then after 6 days, it started to subside a bit, my balls weren't as large, I started to feel tired, I started to feel hungry and sluggish and things started to feel worse than they did before. So I then decided to add clomid at 50mg a day to see if I could boost my LH and FSH levels and then felt bloody awful. I was an emotional wreck.
So, what is this telling me and what is happening here?
- The tamoxifen is blocking the estrogen(?) and I feel much better as a result
- Why did my balls increase in size so quickly?
- However, my body normalised itself by doing.... what? Down regulating LH and FSH production from the pituitary?
- Is 20mg too much?
- How do I get this back? The 5 or 6 days I had at the start of the tamoxifen was better than I ever had on TRT.
I also take Sertraline/Zoloft as an antidepressant which is a bit of a wonder drug for me, however, I understand that the pathway it enters the body through is the same as tamoxifen which could mean that tamoxifen working means that sertraline isn't getting into my system and vice versa... does anyone have any experience like this?
Another thought is that maybe I should have started some hcg before all of this to see how I got on?
Any thoughts or insights?