I gained 50 lbs of muscle before I used steroids, and lifted weights for 10 years to do it. You're just impatient. You're looking for a shortcut. And it won't work.
You're going to have a shitty life if you start using steroids right now, based on what you've told us about yourself. We're here to warn you of that.
But do whatever you want man, I'm done trying to talk sense into you.