Long time T-Nation user; just registered a diffrent name for this post because I’m embarrassed to talk about this.
Basically, I’m turning 23 in 70 days, I’m still living at home with my parents, and I can’t seem to get the fuck out despite the fact that I’ve been planning to do so for two years. I’m stuck.
The problem is that I have wasted pretty much all of my time since high school, not knowing what to do. I attended community college for three years (while living at home), and did not work during that period even though I was only going to school part-time. After graduating last spring, I was finally ready to transfer to a four-year school and get the fuck outta here, but my parents’ financial recent financial burdens ultimately precluded that possibility.
I tried to make a fast $10-20K by growing marijuana. I’ve actually never used any drug before, but my brother knew some people I could sell to, so I decided to go for it. This was stupid because I didn’t know what I was doing, and I got myself busted two months into the grow operation. So now I’m not only broke, but ineligble for federal student financial aid for a period of one year due to having a drug-related offense. Fan-goddamn-tastic.
So, it was decided that I would have to work for a year instead of going to school. I tried to get a decent job, but unfortunately my Associate’s degree is good for JACK SHIT and I haven’t been able to do any better than two shitty low-wage jobs. And, now that it’s the winter season, the hours at my current job have dried up and I’m getting about 10 hrs. a week.
I could get another lousy job, but… I fucking hate this shit. It’s a waste of my existance. I feel like I’m selling a year of my life for $12K - it just isn’t worth my fucking time. Especially after I went to school for three years!
I’m not really making enough money to send myself to school next year, and it’s uncertain as to whether my parents will be able to send me. So I really don’t know what the fuck to do right now.
One this is for sure, and that is that I CAN’T STAND TO SPEND ANOTHER TEN MINUTES LIVING WITH MY PARENTS! I’m just not my own man as long as I’m living here. I have to live by their rules and be totally suboordinate to them. It sucks to be doing this shit at 23. I have to get out, and soon. Within the next 3-6 months for sure.
But, if I move out, I won’t be able to save any money, and I defintely won’t be able to go to school. So, I ask you, WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONNA DO? What the fuck is the point of working all day for minimum wage just to go back to my carboard box in the evening? Not much, as far as I can tell.
I do have some pretty brilliant business ideas, but they will cost money to start up and I don’t currently have any of that shit.
I’ve got $2500 in the bank right now, and am working about 10 hrs a week on the weekends for $7.35 an hour.
What should I do?