Hey guys, again, thanks for all the replies ; here's an update from my side and after seeing a neuro yesterday...
I've completely quit training for awhile (2 weeks now to be exact). Last time I was in there I trained arms - still major weakness, specifically biceps. Triceps seem fine and could still get a good pump but as far as biceps, just pathetic. Couldn't even curl a 20lb DB...ended up getting 4 set of 15lbs for 5 reps (that's how weak I'm talking)...After the pathetic session I'm in my car and just completely exhausted, feeling like I could fall asleep and this is first thing in the morning...really discouraged and said I'm not training again until I feel better and after my neuro appt.
As mentioned, it's been 2 weeks since. I'm off all the stims as suggested and drink only 1 cup of coffee in the morning. The Xanax has definitely been helping at home/work. Work is still stressful, but not nearly as it was in the Spring. Diet is still shit in terms of usual diet and macro counting. Just been eating whatever for lunch and dinner (whatever the wife makes) and cut back on the drinking but still having a few at night (I'm big into craft beer)...just maybe 2. When I don't train I'm a lot less strict on diet/beer.
Still have the weakness but I will say I've stayed off the net and tried keeping ALS/MD out of my head and I feel a hell of a lot better mentally - but still know something is wrong...hopefully it really is stress/anxiety/depression. Mowing my lawn, my legs feel exhausted afterwards, almost to the point I "feel" like I can barely walk but after sitting for 20 minutes it's like my strength comes back - really weird.
Saw my neuro yesterday and explained my symptoms - talked about how it all came on "suddenly/immediately" during this HIGH stress point at work and I was heavy on alcohol/shitty diet mixed w/ stimulants during the day. I explained the weakness while back in the gym and how after googling and reading ALS/MD my symptoms almost immediately got worse. She was writing all this down almost smiling/laughing indicating right away, yep - high stress.
Performed a series of tests on me. She said my strength is fine w/ no atrophy. She then had me do some bodyweight squats and tested my leg strength again and she noticed weakness afterwards. She indicated this is nothing to worry about yet but could be signs of myasthenia gravis (MG) but highly unlikely as it's more common in women...for men, mostly older than my age but I did not show/have any other symptoms of MG.
She ordered some blood work to test for this. So all in all she thinks it's stress. She also referred me to a phychologist for Behavioral Therapy. She also ordered a spinal MRI for me in next few days just to make sure there's nothing funky going on - follow up apt w/ my neuro in 2 months.
Leaving, my wife says to me, don't you feel better? I do...but just a little. My wife thinks I'm nuts. But this is how my head works - she was a tiny woman, to her my strength is probably fine - do I trust her/second guess her? She didn't even order any kind of EMG or muscle biopsy - do I trust her opinion of just stress? How do I know for 100% certain? She encouraged me to get back in the gym and de-stress by doing things I love to do.
What do you guys think? Do I trust my neuro's judgement it's nothing worse? If it truly is stress, when does my strength come back? Again, is this really caused by stress/anxiety/depression? My wife says I got all these questions answered and I feel better but still have questions/concerns as I know I'm weak in areas and being in the gym only discourages me now by knowing my weakness...am I crazy?
Any other fellow T-Nationers out there w/ high stress w/ muscle weakness like this? For the comments above - thank you!
@ RampantBadger - thank you! Any previous experiences w/ muscle weakness like this in legs, arms, fingers?
@ Evolv - in your situation, how severe was your weakness, anything like mine? Did strength come back immediately after leaving your job or did it take some time? How was your diet/training? Any alcohol?
@ Davinci - thank you, definitely will post my bloodwork there. I mentioned adrenal fatigue and she kind of brushed this off quickly saying if it was AF, I would fall to the floor after my few times in gym trying to train. My neuro never even brought up my thyroid, although my physician did...what is abnormal thyroid symptoms/blood work? I think mine came back in range. Is there a way to gauge this by taking my temperatures (sorry, not familiar w/ this but I will do some research).
Thanks again to everyone who takes the time to read these long posts of mine...I truly appreciate it.