That’s what’s frustrating me. Around the age of 27 or 28 I started feeling really rundown. I exercised and ate a good diet, but I felt dead. I went to see the doc and he gave me psych meds. That didn’t change anything. I was told I was unmotivated and needed a life goal, blah, blah, blah. I started med school at 30. It had been a lifelong dream. That was impossible. I didn’t have the energy or the drive to study, and I failed a class by 4 points. I got suspended and never went back since as more time went by I felt more sluggish, tired, and depressed. I went from job to job after that. I felt super insecure and nervous all the time because I didn’t know what was happening. I beat myself up quite a bit. I was a loser. I didn’t care. I needed to pick myself up by the bootstraps, etc. Then last year I was no longer able to get out of bed. I was too tired.
Of course, family came by and helped with the whole you don’t care about anyone. Get up! Loser! Blah, blah, blah again. So I tried that. The result was that I would heavy breath as if I just jogged mile. Then I would get dizzy and fatigued and end up on the floor to rest. I went to the doctor, and he said that maybe we should test hormones. So we did and these were the results:
Vitamin D3 = 31
Vitamin D2 = <4
TSH, 3rd Generation = 0.75
T4, Free 0.8
T3, Free = 321
DHT = 17L
T Total = 78L
T Free = 17.3L
T Bioavailable = 35.6L
Estradiol = 20
Around this same time I started getting so fatigued about three to four times a day that I would have to lie down for at least ten minutes. I was at Wal-Mart, and the fatigue hit me so hard I had to sit down in the grocery aisle. I told my wife to just leave me on the floor. The doc gave me T gel. I immediately felt better! I was alive! I couldn’t believe it! Then after a week all the good feelings went away. The fatigue wasn’t as bad, but I felt nauseous and tired. I took prednisone one day for my inflamed joints and got that wonderful feeling back! But that went away as well.
Where I am now…I have no job, and no insurance. I take what’s left of my T cream from a compounding pharmacy, (I can’t afford a doc visit, blood test, and refill of the cream right now) but still, from around 11Am to 3PM I feel dead tired. I even have to lie down and sometimes I fall asleep. If I take prednisone I have energy throughout the day. But I was told that if I do have a cortisol issue taking pred could kill me because my body would stop making cortisol. So I stopped that.
From what I’ve read there’s more to T replacement than just taking T. I know that. But at this time I’m unemployed, with no insurance, and I’m supporting a wife, a daughter, and a newborn on 1100 a month from unemployment. I don’t qualify for Medicaid because I make too much money. (???)
So, what it comes down to is either meds or pay bills, buy food, and pay for rent. I work in computers (Linux and Windows servers) but can’t find a job. Even if I did I’m so fatigued and my thinking is so “muddy” at times that I might end up losing the job. So…I need to see a doctor to get well in order to feel normal and work. In order to see a doc and buy meds I need a job. So I feel trapped and VERY angry at times.
What I’m going to have to do is to find any job right now. Take stimulants to get through the job for the next three months. Get insurance. See a doctor and get my issues straightened out, and then get a better job.
I’m thinking that since I’ve had this T issue for years now, without knowing it, that I probably burned my adrenals out and now cortisol is messed up. I’m eating right, taking lots of vitamin c, and exercising. Hopefully I should feel a little better, right? Man, I hope so.