Dude you are taking this way too hard.
I'll give you something depressing, having a kidney removed and not being able to work out for 12 weeks. Then right after being released and getting back int he groove, stepping ona piece of steel plate, and wrecking a knee,( out for another 4 weeks).
Finally get everything sorted out, get back in the groove, numbers going up, BF is decreasing, and bam, blew out a shoulder requiring another surgery.
8 weeks after being released from surgery, get under the bar and cannot get 135 off the pins, strip some weight off and wind up starting all the way over, with a bare olympic bare.
Here's the worse part, bitching about not being able to bench press to the 95 pound woman who's been wiping my ass for the last 6 weeks, right after she tells me she PRed a 185 pound bench press.
You have nothing to worry about dude, it's not something worth taking your tonsils out with a shotgun.
Grab a band and do some flys, it won't stress the joint as much and you cna get a little bit of work in.
keep your head up, it can always be worse.