this shit sucks, all i do is go to school, work and go to the gym. i have no social life. i thought when i turned 21 things would change and id more options to go to the bars and clubs but shit hasnt changed at all. i basically have only a couple friends outside the gym which is a catch 22 because i dont really have anyone to hang out with but the people i was hanging out with before were losers.
it wouldnt be so bad if i had a girlfriend or something to pass the time with when im not doing one of said things that i only do but i dont even have oppurtunities to meet women anymore. i work with a lot of girls but the ones who are decent looking arent even hot, they just look better than other girls who work there and theyre all like 27+ anyway and just falling apart.
even at school where theres tons of girls i havent clicked with any of the ones in my classes. and im not the type of dude to just randomly approach someone in the halls, like if i have an oppurtunity to talk at the bus stop or just anytime the situation occurs but i dont hardly get any of those situations.
should i just grow a pair of balls and just go up to random girls in the halls? but i never have anything to say in those situations. all i know is i gotta do something cause this shit aint cool.
theres also this girl i keep fighting myself to call. basically she was being a bitch, we’d hang out and she’d play hard to get. we’d make out and i sucked on a titty or two but she’d always call it off right when it was about to get down to fucking. she also had this complex where she thought i banged every single girl i saw and i was just going to “use” her…anyway one day i talked to her and she said she got drunk and banged some guy and that she thought he “used” her. i told her good, and laughed at her because thats exactly what she thought i was going to do and she deserved it for being a bitch. so yea i really dont want to go through all that b.s. again.
i just feel like i need to find some new people to hang out with but its just not happening. i was also thinking about moving to Las Vegas, they have the fastest growing economy in the country and it’s like the mecca of fresh starts plus theres a party everywhere you look and plenty of party people. i went there once and feel in love with it but it was before i was 21 and couldnt even enjoy things like stripclubs, gambling or bars/clubs.
idk maybe moving to Vegas is a little extreme, id prefer a place with a beach anyway…maybe Hollywood lol but the Boston climate sucks. this place would definately be a lot more tolerable with a girlfriend or at least someone to fuck though.