so long story short i have been making myself crazy on whether or not to start the test cyp that was prescribed to me 3 weeks ago. i know i might get flamed from this but the damage is already done and i cant look back. i am 38 yo weighing 200LB currently and 5’10". back in 2008 i started doing test enth/cyp eq, blasting and cruising anywhere from 300mg to 1000 mg a week of test and 200-500mg eq with maybe 3-40 day periods of adrol at 75mg a day all the way up until my last shot may 3rd 2013. i never did any hcg but i threw in clomid a few times. i was stupid and never thought that i would be shut down for good and time just flew by. really got worried when i went for a sperm count and it was close to zero. my lh and fsh was 0.2 and 0.7 so i decided to come off, my last shot was may 3 this year. i was scared so i went online and tried to find some pct help, even if it was too late i thought i would try. i ordered some hcg,hmg, clomid, torem and nolvadex and started them mid june, i did:
hmg 75 IU 2xweek
hcg 500 iu 3xweek
clomid 50 mg/day
torem 60 mg/day
for approximately 7-8 weeks. stopped everything mid august and waited a month and went to the doc to get my test level and thyroid checked 9/13/13.
total test: 95 (241-827)
thyrooid t4 free 1.0(0.8-1.8)
t3 total 97 (76-181)
TSH 3rd gen 1.74 (0.4-4.5)
doc told me i was screwed and would probably have to go on trt.
went to an endo and got full work up 10/10/13:
fsh 6.0 (1.6-8.0)
lh 4.2 (1.5-9.3)
prolactin 6.1 (2.0-18.0)
estradiol <15 (<39)
total t 205 (250-1100)
test free 29.9 (35-155)
SHBG 43 (10-50)
when i went back on oct 22 he gave me a script for 200mg cyp a week with 250 iu hcg 3x week. i have not started yet because i was wondering if any of you have recovered after such a long use on your own. i am a little more tired, have literally no sex drive, even after 2-3 viagra and a cialas. i have put on about 3-4 inches in my waist Fat (think tire around your stomach) but from there up i am almost the same, maybe a little smaller this is with the same if not cleaner diet. i still go to the gym 3-4x a week and have lost zero strength.
i want to have kids soon so i want to have my sperm rechecked now that i have been off for over 6 months. just wanted to get some feed back as i have been reading for months and my head is still spinning. i was thinking of doing some more blood work in a week or two to see if anything has changed and maybe seeing another endo to see his impressions. am i just making myself crazy? should i just jump on the prescribed test and hcg? i dont really care anymore about being big and just would like to loose the fat in my stomach and move on in life.
sorry for the rant.