I have powerlifting meets in April and June. I'm considering between 2 options:
1) Start cutting after the meet in April and continue till September so I appear somewhat decent for summer (not trying to get super lean just around 10% fat).
2) After making weight for the 181lb class for the April meet, bulk till June to 200lbs and see how fukkin' big & strong I can get and actually be a bigasianboi instead of a smallasiangirl. I know I'll get fat AF and prob get up to 18-20% fat, but I've been wanting to get to this weight for a while just to kinda feed my ego and be like "Yeah I'm 200lbs!" Then after the meet in June I'll cut for the rest of summer (not gonna be shredded I know).