Hey guys thanks for taking the time out and reading this..I've never posted on this site before but I know I'm going to get some quality answers on here..Anyways, I have been over training now for close to two years and I know many of you may think I'm throwing the term "over training" too freely but please listen to my story first.
During the beginning of 2012 I began to notice my training began to become much more difficult and actually lost 5 pounds unintentionally (went from 160 to 155). I had recently went from working out 6 days a week to 7 days because I felt the need to constantly work out. My workouts followed no structure basically just get as strong as possible and days I didn't lift I would go for long runs or sprint sessions (training two different systems I know this is stupid I didn't realize at the time though).
I began to notice I was waking up much early around 4 am which was weird because I've always been a good sleeper. Anyways, ignored it and kept pushing and only really experienced the sleep disturbances maybe once a week..towards the end of 2012 I really began to experience some serious problems..frequent wakings throughout the night, night sweats, fast heart beat.
Finally at the beginning of 2013 i couldn't take it anymore, I had begun to gain weight despite my vigorous workout routine (mostly fat around the stomach) and couldn't sleep. I eventually became extremely depressed mostly in part because i could no longer complete workouts that were a breeze to me and couldn't get that feeling of endorphin release after exercise.
I had went from 155 to 180 with no change in my caloric intake(my caloric intake never went over 2500 calories and i truly believe this was the main culprit in my over training... lack of calories) I finally saw a psychiatrist who put me on lexapro (antidepressants). I was finally able to sleep but i continued to workout but cut it to 6 days a week...started to feel better so i weened of the meds after about a month on them felt really good until mid august of 2013...
From august until now I can't remember the last time ive slept without waking up during the night.. I usually wake up about 4 times and get about 2-3 hours of sleep during waking and sleeping...sometimes I don't sleep at all!... my resting heart in the morning goes from 60 to 110 when i stand. I can't even run anymore with becoming winded and exhausted and exercise doesn't feel good anymore after finishing ( no longer get that endorphin release) I'm back on the meds cause I honestly can't deal and everyone thinks I'm F*ckin crazy when I tell them this because of over training (mostly the Dr.) asked the Dr. to do blood work but he didn't check my cortisol...
Anyways, my plan is to take the meds until I can get a at least 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep and do no training at all (complete rest)...
My question is this:
1) will I ever recovery from this because I honestly feel like death
2) have I done metabolic damage?
I know I should probably eat more and rest but the weight friken piles on if I go over 2000 calories with or without exercise (I've noticed that I actually gain weight now when I work out)
Guys I need some advice here I'm hurting...I love to workout but I feel my ignorance and lack of recovery has done some serious damage to my body that will never be reversed..I'm hoping to get a response from someone who has been through this and has recovered and what they have done..