22 year old with labs at 280/ngdl. Been to several urologists/endos. Tried to restart HPTA axis with clomid monotherapy, failed. This all happened after a steroid cycle. Can’t get my hands on hcg. I have felt like absolute shit for 9-10 months. Lost interest in everything and everybody, don’t even remember what having emotions feels like, except for being down all the time. Impossible to get TRT where I live (Norway). I am thinking self administrated, just want to feel good again, thoughts ?