I have been in the same situation and I know exactly how it feels. Growing up, I was chubby, but during my senior year in high school I combined running with diet and lost 50 pounds getting down to 6ft 150.
When I started working out 6 months ago, I was eating about maintenance level but still seeing newbie gains. After a few months and a couple weeks of cutting (wanted to look good for parties where little clothing would be worn), I reached frustrating plateaus.
Currently, I’m bulking despite summer coming for the following reasons:
-With maintenance diet, I was unable to increase my weights weekly and got stuck at low weights. After raising calories, I have busted every plateau despite gaining some fat along the way. Worth it to me.
-Set a clear goal and know what you want. Then decide HOW you will get there. I’ve decided that it’s easier to bulk and then cut later to get a muscle physique than it is to make slow gains on a very difficult diet (like carb cycling).
There’s nothing wrong with adding fat as long as you keep your goals in mind. Remember that you’ve lost fat before and you can do it again if you put enough effort into it.
Raise those calories, train hard, and sleep well!
PS I am also a nocturnal protein feeder.