Can't say anything much better than X said, but I'll still throw something out there.
I'm not a big guy; people think I am but 6'4" 209 lbs is not big. I have managed to pack on over 20 lbs of muscle in the past two to three years, though.
Nevertheless, I find myself feeling exactly as Matgic does, and he and I have discussed this. We get a "high" feeling from a compliment or the day of a fantastic workout, and at times those days make me feel as though I am a Greek god, a "statue" of masculinity.
To me, making myself look masculine and muscular and strong is an extremely powerful feeling.
Is this a lie that I live? Or do I look and am I powerful, masculine and strong?
Besides the fact that it's all relative, it boils down to, as always, the middle of the road I think. I am both lying to myself due to insecurities, but at the same time do look powerful.
I also know that these conflicting feelings occur, for me, not just in lifting but in college, romance, my career choice, etc. I'd be willing to bet that Matgic and others share this with me.
Sometimes, perhaps we feel as though academically or professionally we have made great progress, and truly honed our skills and tools for what it takes to succeed in areas that are not lifting... yet, that demon hits us, maybe in that wolf hour TC talked about this week, or just maybe when we let our emotional guards down or feel like beating up on ourselves a bit.
So, is it healthy? Yes and no. With it, I manage to put myself in states of feeling nearly worthless (in lifting, life, etc). But without it, frankly I don't know if I'd ever have the will to push myself to succeed.
It's a strange relationship we have with our insecurities. Greatness strength/weakness type of thing.
Although, maybe I just need to chill out and get counseling. Haha.
my two cents,