I'm sure many of you have heard about the "Adonis Complex" or reverse anorexia which generally speaking, entails a lifter never being happy/satisfied with the amount of muscle that they have. Now, I'm certainly not huge by any means, but logically I know I've made good progress, however, sometimes I feel as though I've accomplished nothing.
I go through periods of feeling great and periods of feeling like I suck. I am currently 208lb at 5'10 and 19 years old. Sometimes I am quite happy about the progress I've made and sometimes I just feel like crap about it. I can never seem to view my progress objectively, but I always seem to give the benefit of the doubt to other lifters I see.
I often use my arms as a measuring stick for progress in my whole body as I rarely work them directly and I feel that they grow quite proportionatly to the rest of my body. I figure that if my arms are shrinking or growing than the rest of my body must be doing close behind.
Saying this, I feel like a little anorexic girl who weighs herself numerous times throughout the day, but I do feel the need to measure my arms a number of times throughout the day to make sure they arent shrinking. I do this, despite knowing that muscle loss is not nearly this rapid and that any increases or decreases in size are most likely a result of hydration, glycogen storage, etc.
Is this ambivalance towards one's own progress a normal occurence among lifters or is there perhaps something wrong with me? I know that dissatisfaction is necessariy for improvement, but how much dissatisfaction is psychologically healthy? And are there any suggestions to help the problem? Thanks in advance.