You need to get off the drugs and see what your values are. Do you know what they are?
Yes, you very well can shut yourself down for good if the pituitary has been inactive for a very long time. This is why COMPETENT doctors will ask if there has been AAS use in their first visit with you, as did mine.
What do you mean by "looks like"? All it can look like is consistent abnormally low FSH, LH, and T values. Unlesss you get off the drugs, visit a COMPETENT (strong emphasis on this word, as you can see) and get your values check, you will not know where you stand.
By the way, TRT involves no blasting and cruising--it's medicine given under a physician's prescription for a medical condition.
You said you won't consider using TRT unless the need arises. As long as you blast and cruise, you will know if there's a need.
And keep in mind that the longer you go through life blasting and cruising with BB style AAS use, the more likelihood you'll need TRT.
Most competent doctors (not rogue) affiliated with hospitals and medical systems will NEVER deal with someone non-compliant and constantly taking roids.