A lot of what you wrote there, and the other posters who have weighed in already genuinely made me feel nice this morning.
Sorry if my respsonse is shite, I'm typing on my phone and I'm majorly hung over.
Training/diet wise my log has everything really;
As pwolves said I'm pretty singly focused which makes for a boring read lol.
Mistakes....I never trained legs early on and still don't train them hard enough. Fell into the trap of believing I was at least an intermediate lifter after a year and used principles far too advanced for the likes of me.
I used to work full time as a bartender as well as school but thankfully the student loan system here has changed so recently I've even able to focus solely on studying/training/life.
After suffering from depression and anxiety for the best part of 2011/12 I just changed in regards to training and diet, too many things were beyond my control (like friends deaths and things I was suffering from ) so I just try and clutch at straws at some of the few things I do have control over.
I don't know about competing in all honesty, the way it works here is rather odd and there no physique options here as a far as I know (which would be the best option for me cause if chicken legs).
Indeed I was a permabulker, sadly not a burger buff tho lol. Just took advice off here and other places that I should be ashamed of myself that I was under 200lbs at my height and should be eating 3000+ Calories to get there no matter what.
Cause of that experience I really believe nutrition is the factor that should be slightly over thought for people rather than worrying over the hundreds of ways to do a bicep curl .
Thanks again to you and everyone with positive words, they provide me the motivation to try and not be mediocre.