I need some unbiased opinions, and always when I asked, this forum has been serious and friendly. I will start with the question: What is my potential? Where can I get without anabolics if I dedicate myself to this sport (show me some similar physiques)?
I suffer from depression (and others) and in 2019 I started practicing “bodybuilding” at home, with the initial goal of losing weight. I started here:
It began to help me with my well-being, and with my self-confidence. But because of my illness, that’s not enough, and it turned into an torment. I looked at the top physics. I became obsessed with professional bodybuilders like Mike Mentzer (especially), Casey Viator, Franco Columbu, Ray Mentzer…
At the end of the first year (without any diet, only gym) I looked like this, with 15 kg less:
The workouts were getting annoying, I wasn’t performing well, I wasn’t satisfied, I didn’t even see how it was possible to get there (especially). I started to remove my body hair, I intensified my workouts, I started to eliminate unhealthy foods. This is what we looked like in AUGUST 2020 :
The diseases got worse and in February 2021 I tried to commit suicide. The last picture with my physique is from JANUARY 2021:
I recovered, but I don’t enjoy the sport so much without seeing the potential I have, compared to what I think I have to reach (for example, Mike Mentzer). The problem and the question are: Can I get somewhere? Do I have potential? What routes do I have to take to get where I want, of course, if I can get where I want? And if the answer is that I can, that the pictures left here shows that there is potential, then what advice do you give me? Tips? Supplements? More? Beyond the limits we talked about?
Thanks for the time, and leave whatever you think can help me. But please do not insist on exercise for health, for well-being, because, as I said, in my case it makes me worse (because I know where I can NOT get with it). In other words, if I can’t get there, for me bodybuilding will no longer exist. Sorry if I wrote something wrong, I used google translate and a grammar checker.