I've discovered something about myself that may help others who can't bring themselves to accept gaining a little fat in order to increase their lean mass.
According to recent caliper measurements I'm ~10% BF. However, right after Christmas I bought one of those inexpensive electronic body fat scales at huge-mart, even though everything I've read said they're not accurate. But I like gadgets, and figured that even if it wasn't accurate, if it was consistent I could use it to monitor trends.
Well, it's been consistent, showing small increases in BF% as the caliper readings increased and vice-versa. However, it's also been telling me I'm ~15%BF, when the caliper measurements were telling me I was 9%. Seeing the number go from 14.9% to 15.1%, combined with seeing the caliper measurements go up, I believe was wreaking psychological havoc. I'd think "crap, I'm going to end up just being fat if I don't get down to a good starting point (10%) before I try to bulk".
Which of the two measurements is correct doesn't really matter at this point. At 6'0", 170 lbs with a 32" waist, I'm not "fat" by any definition, and am unlikely to get fat by eating a relatively clean 500-1000 cals over maintenance while following solid lifting routines. What does matter is the psychological difference between the two numbers. I'm more likely to continue eating at a surplus if objective data tells me I'm 10% than if objective data tells me I'm at 15%.
I've stopped using the BF function of the scale and have been eating at a surplus since taking those measurements. I'm seeing the pounds slowly inch upward. Even though my abdominal skinfold measurement has gone up to a "whopping" 9mm from a low of 7.5mm, the psychological difference of seeing the numbers at 10% BF vs 15% BF has me not even worrying about gaining a few pounds of fat.
I'm not saying to lie to yourself and do something stupid (like telling yourself you're 10% BF when you're really 30% and trying to bulk), but I am saying that having realistic, objective information in front of you every day might get you past your "manorexia", regardless of what you "know" to be correct.
My goal is 1.0-1.5 lbs/week with at least half of that being lean mass. Let's see if I can reach somewhere between 190-200 by Christmas.