I’ve procrastinated my whole life. When I was 14 I had a paper route and monthly I was supposed to go around and collect the subscription money and I always waited until the last day to do it. Throughout HS and college, I would wait until the last minute to do projects and study for tests which led to less than stellar grades.
I’m sitting at my desk right now trying to get myself motivated to get the materials together I need for my business so I can give them to my accountant. My business partners are visibly upset with me because they can’t file their personal returns until they have the partnership return. Last year, I paid $4,000 out of my own pocket because the LLC turned in it’s return late. Over the last 4 years, I’ve paid the IRS over $80,000 in penalties because I haven’t turned in returns on time. I can’t even get myself to send in the form asking for an automatic extension on time.
I still haven’t prepared my 2011 and 2012 returns (or, more accurately gotten the material together to give to my accountant), nor have I mailed in a return for 2010 sitting on my desk for which I will receive a refund of around $20,000.
I’ve read books, I’ve talked to a LCSW, my procrastination has negatively affected others (my partners) and damaged my reputation in their eyes, and has cost me tens of thousands of dollars. Yet I still persist.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
Edit: Changed “shrink” to LCSW