(about my lifestyle in general)
I am Aegis67, a 19-year-old guy (turning 20 in October) from the Netherlands. I am 185cm of height (and if I have to believe the google calculator 1 foot = 30.48, making me 6,07 feet tall) and I weigh in at a little 65kg (1 pound = 0.453kg, making meÃ¢?Â¦ 143.5lbs).
When I look in the mirror I see some muscles here and there, especially my pecs/abs (for a guy of my age I actually have above average muscles compared to other 19yos in my country) but I believe itÃ¢??s just a genetic advantage (aside from the abs, anyone eating as little as me has an 8pack), because I have a lot of problems with food.
Now I donÃ¢??t want to sound like a whiny little boy who cries on every message board that heÃ¢??s a Ã¢??hardgainerÃ¢?? or some faggotish shit (IÃ¢??ve been reading T-Nation for years and started training 2 years ago,
unfortunately I was inexperienced and didnÃ¢??t know my shit, neither could I eat enough food and thatÃ¢??s still a problem), but I really need some help with my eating habits without having to contact some dietist for more money than I can afford while she gives me advice that would be good for Ã¢??normalÃ¢?? people who do not want to look uberripped. I figured you guys could help me out.
Now I know that it might be pretty hard, as all of you are loaded with testosterone and are very alpha and have this whole Ã¢??stfu and liftÃ¢?? Ã¢??just eat faggot youÃ¢??re not in auschwitzÃ¢??-mentality (not saying itÃ¢??s bad, I like it actuallyÃ¢?Â¦
but right now it doesnÃ¢??t work in my advantage) and probably some sort of allergy to people with my physique and problems, but I really want to become like one of you guys and I really hope that you wonÃ¢??t respond too negatively or harshly and can help a Ã¢??whiny little crybabyÃ¢?? (as most of you probably stereotype me) out of the world
My first problem is my sleeping rhythmÃ¢?Â¦ which I find very hard to change. It is one of the reasons why I quit my education (wellÃ¢?Â¦ was kicked out of school because I didnÃ¢??t show up much) Ã?Â I am simply unable to get out of bed early and stay awake for a long time.
According to the (specialist)doctor itÃ¢??s worse than Ã¢??just being a night-personÃ¢?? and something I have in me because my father AND mother suffered from very heavy migraine and epilepsyÃ¢?Â¦ I donÃ¢??t necessarily believe what he says (though I probably should because heÃ¢??s a specialist), but that is because it will sound like there is no way I can change it and I really want to change it.
Simply going to bed earlier will not work Ã¢?? I wonÃ¢??t fall asleep. I have tried melatonine supplements (not the ones you buy over the counter with way too many mg in it) and many a medicine but nothing seems to work effectively. In fact, the doctor would not give me sleeping pills first so I actually searched (and found) for someone who had sleeping pills and explained my problem and he sold me some very heavy sleeping pills.
It doesnÃ¢??t work, if I take them at 10 PM I will sleep till next day 12 PM, if I take them at 7 PM I will sleep till 12 PM next day, if I take them for 2 weeks at 8 PM I will sleep till 12 PM for 14 days. IÃ¢??ve also tried going to bed at other times, but it doesnÃ¢??t seem to work. IÃ¢??ve tried this:
Only going to bed when IÃ¢??m really sleepy, putting clock at different times in the morning (6 AM, 7 AM, 8 AM) and just keep doing this Ã?Â fail
Going to bed at [x] and set clock at [y] Ã?Â I lay awake till 3-5 AM, fall asleep, wake up by clock and feel shit whole day, try to fall asleep earlier because IÃ¢??m tried Ã?Â lay awake but this time feeling shit till 3-5 AM
Shifting eating patterns Ã?Â I live with my parents (more on this later) and they eat at Ã¢??normalÃ¢?? times, so I canÃ¢??t have breakfast at 12 PM (btw if I wake up at 12 PM IÃ¢??m luckyÃ¢?Â¦ usually itÃ¢??s 12:30 Ã¢?? 14:30)
So how does my eating look right now?
13:30 Ã¢?? eat 4 slices of (brown, the good type) bread with natural peanut butter + drink this Ã¢??liquid breakfast milkÃ¢?? (which I think is probably for 13yo girls who are 5Ã¢??1 and weigh less than my dogÃ¢?Â¦ but itÃ¢??s better than milk and has some ok calories compared to whole milk and stuff and fruit juice).
Sometimes I drink a huge fruitshake (like 1 litre of blended fruitÃ¢?Â¦ normal shake would contain something like: 15 strawberries, 1 banana, 20 blueberries, 20 grapes and whatever I can find) which doesnÃ¢??t always taste that good lol but I can down it without feeling nauseous afterwards, which is the case and here is also my problemÃ¢?Â¦ with too much lactose.
Now IÃ¢??m not lactose intolerant (thank god!) but if I get too much milk or yoghurt I almost throw up. I have the same problem with oatmeal, IÃ¢??ve tried making it with water but it doesnÃ¢??t work either, I canÃ¢??t stomach oatmeal (also tried different brands/types). Luckily I can eat eggs like any normal person without having problems but to eat 5-6 eggs a dayÃ¢?Â¦ Not very attractive.
17:30 Ã¢?? Dinner, whatever we eat (live at parents remember?)
Ã¢?Â¦Ã¢?Â¦Ã¢?Â¦Ã¢?Â¦Ã¢?Â¦and thatÃ¢??s it. Yes I know it gives you pain reading it, imagine me actually doing it. I just canÃ¢??t find a good way to get more calories. Right now I have been trying nuts, a lot of them (first salted but then I realized that was bad even though they taste much worse unsalted heheÃ¢?Â¦ so now theyÃ¢??re unsalted).
I like almost all nuts (before we get lame jokes hÃ?Â©hÃ?Â© ), almond, macademia, cashew, peanut (I eat peanut the least because the others are better I think) and I even eat many seeds (sesame seed, flaxseeds grindedÃ¢?Â¦) because theyÃ¢??re easy cals I think. I have some troubles with the oils (how do you take olive oil (extra virgin of course) and flaxseed oil etc.? Just put it in a tablespoon and gogo?). Anyway, despite all this I still donÃ¢??t eat enough.
Now you say: why donÃ¢??t you drink protein shakes with weight gainersÃ¢?Â¦? Well I do that, but I canÃ¢??t have the stuff at home because my parents are paranoia and think everything that is not a potato or apple = uberanadrolhalotestinmix and illegal on earth and mars. I take it at fitness (I go to fitness 3x a week and after each workout protein + gainers in milk), I also use (pure) creatine but I donÃ¢??t see the gains that I want (which is common sense when you see my dietÃ¢?Â¦ almost no kcal and not enough protein at the right time).
Now you might think: dude you are almost 20, tell your parents to stfu. Well I have no education or diploma or job (recession + no money heh) so my parents pay everything for me Ã¢?? my food, computer, internet connection, phone bill (!), fitness membership (I have an uberfitness with sauna, steam baths almost all equipment you can imagine (thick bars one of them)
and then some and no faggots doing single leg yoga inverse kettlebell howling gosu ball lunges of the flying werewolf +5 to strength on a balance board with flowers, just good squats, benchpress, military press, deadlifts etcÃ¢?Â¦ and as for the money, I get allowance with what I can do whatever I want (buy creatine + visit my girlfriend more on that later (omg more? Yes, sorry. Double sorry for no pictures hehe).
I actually think I have found a job (have applied for 8 jobs in the last 4 months but all rejected because I have no nice curriculum vitae and everyone is searching for easy jobs without necessary diploma and itÃ¢??s extra hard for me because I canÃ¢??t rise early right now), so it solves the money problem a bit, allowing me to buy more supplements.
Anyone know good over the counter products I should buy? I was thinking of a good whey protein (very hard to findÃ¢?Â¦ some have so much shit in themÃ¢?Â¦ or should I save up and buy online? How much is Biotest shipping cost to the Netherlands anyway?)
Now the girlfriend problemÃ¢?Â¦ She lives quite a while away and I go to her every other week or so and stay with her for about 5-7 days, but she is very lean/small (she is older than me, no pedo here heh) and eats even less and typical Ã¢??girlÃ¢?? stuff that wonÃ¢??t really help me (o yummy chocolate crispies for breakfast, might as well eat sugar cubes for breakfast keke -_-)
so I am searching for something to eat at her that is easily prepared in the morning (or in my case early afternoon). The kitchen there is really really dirty (student-flat with only 1 kitchen and 2 bathrooms = sux lol) so I try to avoid using itÃ¢?Â¦ Also I have to use my allowance money to buy stuff (now I can ask my aunt: hey can you bring xx (like coconut milk) and she will bring it when she did groceries) when IÃ¢??m at her place.
Of course I canÃ¢??t work-out when IÃ¢??m at her place (except for cardio although I sometimes do some diamond push-ups and dips and one-legged squats etc. but itÃ¢??s just so I can do SOMETHINGÃ¢?Â¦) and usually my appetite is a bit smaller anyway and itÃ¢??s already so small.
Which brings me to the last problemÃ¢?Â¦ I have really low appetite. Right now I am already pushing myself (and sometimes accidentally push too far Ã?Â I throw up an hour after or wake up at 6 AM and then throw up).
Right now I am doing the following, which is a bit of a help but not muchÃ¢?Â¦
Experimenting with a biphasic sleep pattern. Basically do the same like they do in countries where the weather is good. I go to sleep at 3 AM or so (usually fall asleep quickly), alarm at 6-7 AM (depends), wake up feeling ubershit, wait a while (if I eat right after I wake up I have to throw up.
Yes I know it sucks, IÃ¢??ve tried many times but just doesnÃ¢??t work), then eat. Do some stuff, fall asleep in the afternoon and then I wake up fresh again and work-out/do normal daily routine.
Eating lots of buttercakes (donÃ¢??t know English word) which I stomach quite decent and are lots of calsÃ¢?Â¦ not very healthy though but I lack alternative
Try to increase my workcapacity (I spent whole day in front of the computer on non-training and non-girlfriend days from 13:30 to 03:00Ã¢?Â¦ and on training days only break I get is training)
So can you guys please help me with some of the problems stated above? Would be greatly appreciated. Like I said I think I have work soon so it will solve some problems (will be able to buy supplements myself and better food at gf).
I have the training part down though, thatÃ¢??s not really a prob.
If necessary I can post pictures of me? Flexed and unflexed (I think you can imagine how I look though lol).
P.S. - I don't consume alcohol or smoke or something.
EDIT: It's 4:07 AM here so I will go to sleep now, cya in the afternoon