i want to balloon up then deflate to an optimum size i want to maintain.
i lifted quite a bit in the marines. i went in weighing 160 lbs and after four months in japan i blew up to 210. i got tested for things twice while in japan because of how fast i gained and how much mass i gained. the only thing my body saw was twice my body weight in protein, water, sleep, and two hours of gym time 5 days a week. never touched a weight before the corps. anyway i havent lifted since 2002 and my wife said i look like a skinny fat guy. im still a thick dude, just heavier. i wiegh 250 and thicker around the waist. so ive started running to drop the weight and its working.
i once again started lifting but the pump i used to get just isnt happenning and i havent gained anything. so now im thinking of just running and cardio to drop down to 215 then start a cycle to help me put on some mass in the muscle department. since im older (32) i know gaining muscle is harder and i really want to have a better self picture. the questions i have are these: keep in mind i have never used performance enhancers before so im pretty lost in the sauce. ive done some research but still really confused.
1.oral or injectable- injections wouldnt bother me, and i want max results
2.is one product enough or do i need to combine some products together
3.will one cycle be enough for what i want. short term side effects dont worry me too much i just dont want to get addicted
i know i sound stupid, but seriously i dont know what to do here. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!!