my happiness and self esteem is intrinsically linked to lifting, despite lots of other positive shit going on in my life. If i miss a PR, dont get a PR for a while... miss a lift, have a bad sesh, etc etc, then i'll be subdued 'til the next sesh... luckily im PRing almost every time i go, on account of mixing so much shit up. Last night i got 3 PRs: rackpulls (300kg deeper than usual), overhead press (same weight as last PR, triple the reps) and cleans (weight PR, for reps!).
So yeah, obsessed not necessarily with the sport or federations of powerlifting itself, but the actual lifting and getting stronger... fundamental to surcease and happiness at the moment.