-age - 26
-waist â?? 28-30 Inches
-weight â?? 135 lbs
-describe body and facial hair
A small amount of hair on chest and stomach, average looking arms and legs, beard is on neck, sideburns, 'goatee' area and cheeks. My facial hair takes time to grow back. I was in the military (USMC) and we had to maintain a clean shaven face. I would be able to go almost a week without shaving before my stubble became noticeable. When I got out I let my facial hair grow for 2 months and one of my friends made fun of me because what I grew in 2 month, he said he could grow in 2 days lol. He was exaggerating, but he could have caught up to me in a week, so thatâ??s still bad for me.
My facial hair is not of an adult texture. My fatherâ??s facial hair as well as other males in my family and that I know have a different texture. My texture is kind of the next step up from peach fuzz. My under arm hair is also not of adult texture, still soft and curly, not coarse. I do not have a lot of under arm hair, though I have noticed some growth this year. Same thing with my pubic hair. My pubic hair comes out when I am in the shower. I do use a wash rag, but I gets everywhere. I donâ??t have patches missing or anything, but I did shave my pubic once and it took forever to grow back like a month and change. It was horrible because I have SMALL testicles ( I feel they are under developed)
-describe where you carry fat and how changed
I am very skin and do not have body fat. Well I would image its impossible not to have ANY body fat, but I am a very skinny, ectomorph, couldn't gain weigh if you paid me to, type of guy. 5â??9 135lbs soaking wet.
-health conditions, symptoms [history]
Depression, anxiety (possible), Chronic fatigue, Sleep Apnea, Insomnia, feeling cold all the time
-Rx and OTC drugs, any hair loss drugs or prostate drugs ever
Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Prozac, < all for depression. Trazodone (for sleep issues) , This was all from 2008-2010. I also took some acne pills as a teenager, I donâ??t remember what it was. It was NOT Accutane. I tried multiple adrenal herbs/glandulars (all seem to be non effective). Herbs for depression (st. Johns Wort etcâ?¦) A bunch of super foods. Long story short nothing worked and I had all the issues I had before these products/meds and I still have them now.
-describe diet [some create substantial damage with starvation diets]
Currently a vegan, I could be doing better with my diet, but again, I had all the issues Iâ??m having back when I was a meat eater, eating the standard American diet. I never had much of sweet tooth back and I donâ??t have one now. I eat the same thing every week just about. I juice fruits and vegetables and do super foods every now and then. Again I had these issues before the diet. Also my appetite is horrible, sometimes I can get away with eating once a day. I donâ??t purposely do it, but sometimes Iâ??m not hungry and Iâ??ll only eat so I donâ??t get hungry when everything closes. I had some gut issues, but I fixed all of that as confirmed by a GI Profile. I donâ??t drink a lot of water either, I have frequent urination and drinking a bottle of water would keep me in the bathroom lol.
-describe training [some ruin their hormones by over training]
I do not current exercise and havenâ??t for about 5 years, mind you I am very skinny so I still look in shape, but I am too fatigue to work out. Hell I only sleep 2-4 hours, mostly 2 per night. I was in the Marines from 18-23 years old (2006-2011). I used to work out in the Military as a unit, never much on my own. I performed well. I always though I could do better, but I always felt fatigued. I tried lifting weights in the military, but I didn't work out. I tried lifting weights during my last year in HS, but that was a waste of time again, I was always to tired. I did pass my weightlifting class, but I did not gain any weight.
-testes ache, ever, with a fever?
I definitely get some achy balls now and then. Didn't think much of it. My left testicle aches as Iâ??m writing this. The right one never gives me a problem. My left testicle is smaller than my right. Again I have small testicles to begin with. They donâ??t hang much and are really close to my shaft. Its very uncomfortable. They do not hang like they should and Iâ??m pretty sure there are grapes bigger than my testicles. No BS. Like the big plump grapes. If I took my testicles out and replaced them with 1 golf ball (total, not each), my sack would be bigger than it normally is.
-how have morning wood and nocturnal erections changed.
I am currently on clomid, so that is affecting me on the negative side of thing as far as sex drive, but I will get to that later on. Normally I have a lot of erections and a lot of precum dripping. Its weird. I still feel Iâ??m in like tanner stage 3-4 in puberty. I shouldn't be that easily aroused. I know some guys here would like to be in my shoes in that regard, but itâ??s a hassle/problem. For instance if I see a girl I like and I hug her, Iâ??ll get an erection or come pretty close to getting one. I should not be that sensitive. As far as nocturnal erections, Iâ??m usually up most of my nights and yes I have erections.
All right Iâ??ll explain the whole thing below.
When I was younger say middle school. I used to love playing basketball. I could play all day, I took it very serious. I had some depressions issues back then, but I kept rolling with the punches. Then I went to HS and in 9th grade I had gym class. I would play basketball in there when they let us, other than that it was flag football or badminton (it was actually fun). I sprained my ankle twice that year in 9th grade. I sprained it playing basketball. It was healing pretty well then I jumped down a short flight of stairs and hurt it again lol. I knowâ?¦stupid. After that I healed, but that was the last time I was really physically active until I joined the Marines. Now I donâ??t know what happened, but when I was in HS, things just changed. The depressions started hitting me hard, I was always irritable and anxious. I used to sweat for no reason sometimes and I always had that pubescent body odor smell. Not quite a full grown manâ??s body odor, but that smell in between. Kind of hard to explain. But I never felt like I developed properly. My twin cousins had mustaches and I didn't, they had under hair and I didn't, however I was still taller and weigh more than they did. And Iâ??m still taller and weigh more if not the same and they still look older than me. These are my first cousins too. After I graduated HS, I joined the Marines. Boot camp was a killer because I was always tired and fatigued, but I pulled through. I did pretty good overall. I just felt like shit while doing it. Now I had sleep issues all through HS and possible middle school (I canâ??t remember exactly about middle school). I finally started complaining in the Marines and went to the doctors. At first I was just told to practice good sleep hygiene (total BS). Then I tried again and was given Ambien (didn't really work), Ambien CR (still didn't work), Lunesta (didn't work). I also tried any and everything over the counter that I could findâ?¦Still didn't work. I was taking antidepressants. Still didn't work. Fast forward 2 years. I am diagnosed with Mild Obstructive Sleep Apnea. I barely made the limit. I was given a CPAP machine. The machine didn't help. I could only tolerate for 4 hours. The thing is. I have severe insomnia. During the sleep study it took my 75 minutes to fall asleep. Anything after 10-15 minutes is insomnia. I tried to get the pressure increase for my CPAP thinking that would help me fall asleep. The doctor declined and stated that there is something else going on with me that I need to find out. By this time I googling any and everything. I come across testosterone. I always felt I was under developed for my age and I still feel that way. I honestly believe I will grow taller and my shoulders will broaden just a bit and I will gain weight. Im 27 call me crazy, but I just feel that way. Anyway I get my main doctor to check my testosterone levels. All she says is that they are normal. I NEVER got the actual results. I was stupid and I took her word for it, but still felt something was wrong. by the way this all done by military (Navy) doctors. Marines dont have their own doctors. She did a testicular exam as part of my final physical when I was leaving the military in 2011. She didnt mention anything about the size of my testiclesâ?¦neither did I (at least I donâ??t remember). When I got out of the military I found a naturopathic doctor and got some adrenal tests done. I will post all lab results. I will likely scan the documents.
The labs I have are from different dates and ranges so please look keep that in mind when you compare them.
Again my symptoms are: Fatigue, Chronic Major Depression (at least 8 years), Insomnia (bad), Inablity to stay sleep (I'm up by 2am), I have Mild Obstructive Sleep Apnea, Mood Swings, some Anxiety, Cant really gain weight/muscle (think ectomorph), Decrease Sex-Drive/Libido, Erection quality not bad, but could be better.
I am aware that I had/have low vitamin D and B12. My doctor states even though they are low she does not think that they are the reason for any of the symptoms above.
I tried Clomid for 3 weeks after my second to last results. My test went up through the roof and I didn't notice any positive changes, no extra facial hair, no increase in libido...Basically none of my symptoms mentioned above changes. I did notice my sex-drive slightly decrease and my orgasms are as sensational as before, but nothing to panic about. Well i did notice that my testicles felt a little fuller especially my left one. That one is smaller than the right and hurts sometimes. I stopped the Clomid and things went back to normal (Testicle still hurts and small without the clomid-it hurts off and on Clomid, both of my testicles are still small for my age). My estradiol went through the roof so I guess that's the problem. I was on 50mg for 3 weeks. Then got tested. Those are the last results. The doc say to take 25mg and get retest. I have been on 25mg for a number of weeks and waiting to get tested again.
Another thing I thought I had adrenal fatigue, but I dont think thats really the case, but im open to your opinions.