Hello
Need some input in my case before I see the doctor, which I would like to avoid
Age 40 6’2 195 lbs low fat
Always been into sports so I am rather athletic, occasionally periods of couple months when I lift heavy in the gym, but it has never been my priority.
I started doing sarms in my early 30 , usually one strong cycle once a year.
Around age 36 I started noticing problems with libido by the end of the sarm cycle, but it would fix itself within less then four weeks after light clomid or nolva pct ( 4 weeks),
so It did not bother me.
Spring 2020 I did my first testosterone enth cycle 500 mg week split it no two doses, 12 weeks ,
when test kicked in which was about 4 weeks into cycle libido and aggression went crazy high ,
but it only lasted about 3 weeks and then it started crashing so I added AI and it improved, not to the crazy high levels but to the somehow normal levels,
last five weeks of the cycle I started taking HCG which also positively affected libido, after cycle clomid pct 4 weeks and libido tanked gradually.
Cycle ended in May. Next few months libido was quiet shitty but acceptable.
I decided to do another test cycle in January, same thing 500 mg. I had to stop cycle due to getting sick after 4 weeks. I did 3 weeks of clomid pct. After this I felt like shit depression kicked in etc.
I made another approach starting in march, 500 mg test, 13 weeks.
During this cycle I did not notice any spike in libido which to my surprise was quiet shitty considering the fact that I was on 500 test/week, AI did not improve it like before,
I added 500 HCG eod, and again it had definitely positive effect on libido, nothing to write home about but It was certainly better then before.
I ended cycle in may, did 4 weeks pct , libido crashed.
In August I decided to do cycle with just Ostarine (sarm) 10 weeks, while taking it libido was shitty.
After finishing it in October I did strong PCT clomid/nolva together, by the end of that pct I had zero libido and got depressed and almost suicidal from clomid I thing, I don’t intend to touch it again.
I think it all overlapped: my cycles, me hitting 40s, and some problems in my personal life.
Now my libido is weak, it is nothing compared to where it was 2 years ago before I did first cycle.
Other problems that I had during that period was , constant sweating and sleeping problems, I think I slept on average 4 hours a day and my blood pressure was osculating around 150/70.
During those two years my weight was between 205-225 lbs. So now as you can see I lost 25 pounds. I did that intentionally. Also on blood pressure pills. It helped my bp and I finally can sleep 7-8 hours a day.
Generally I feel 10 times better only issue is libido.
And by that I mean I cant keep it up too long because of the lack of sensation. When I get to have sex I get normal reaction even when kissing woman I get erection,
its the lack of that electric sensation, that was always normal , I was always on the kind of premature ejaculation side and was praying to not be so sensitive and last longer,
now its like it turned around, but if sensation is not there I get easily distracted and get anxiety and erection goes to hell. I basically don’t get the same pleasure as before.
Also another problem is that if I manage to luckily come, my refractory period is couple of days, while two years ago I was still able to go few times a night,
I am not trying to be sex machine but once or twice a day would be nice.
This shit is kind of depressing, my relationship fell apart because of that, and it was mostly because I did not feel like a man and lost all the confidence.
When taking steroids we usually think about heart, liver , kidneys, nobody expects to turn into eunuch.
Anyway these my labs results, I did not get free test which I will get after new years and also some others to compare consistency, if you could shed some comment I would appreciate it
TESTOSTERONE, TOTAL, MS 594 Reference Range: 250-1100 ng/dL
FSH 3.3 Range:1.6-8.0 mIU/mL
LH 5.4 Range:1.5-9.3 mIU/mL
INSULIN, FREE (BIOACTIVE) 2.7 Range:1.5-14.9 uIU/mL
CORTISOL, TOTAL 15.4
INSULIN 2.9
PROGESTERONE <0.5 Range: <1.4 ng/mL
TSH 1.95 Range: 0.40-4.50 mIU/L
ESTRADIOL 59 Range: < OR = 39 pg/mL <--------------------------------HIGH
SEX HORMONE BINDING GLOBULIN 45 Range: 10-50 nmol/L
T3, FREE 4.1 Range: 2.3-4.2 pg/mL
PROLACTIN 10.3 Range: 2.0-18.0 ng/mL
As you can see I don’t have free testosterone result, Estradiol is high, SHBG is on the high side of the range.
Anyways thanks for any suggestions.