il try not to make this sound lame as its a bit of a rant with various quetions. i’v been reading, well trying to read the many many articles, and i may bring some things up that have been discussed, sorry if i do.
firstly im 19, 6" 168 8% bf, been using weights since i were 15, but im not really thinking about using steroids yet or maybe ever as im not a bodybuilder, powerlifter,strongman or o-lifter like steroids are normally associated with (but you know that already).
i play rugby league, i have been involved wih a pro team since i were 14 (scholarship,U18 junior academy and now the U21 senior academy) so iv been playing above my age/size for the majority of this time and my size had never been much of a problem because i play wing, im fast. but in 2006 i injured my shoulder and my knee straight after, then i came back in 2007 and i felt like i were bein left behind physically by the younger players coming up not to mention all the older players and 1st team players that get put in the senior academy to get a run out.
now i have an huge intrest with weightlifting, o-liftin and strongman i try and read everything i can about weight training and conditioning, im on my way and i want to be a strength and conditioning coach. so i have an idea of what i need to do.
right back to the rugby, when i went back in 07 the coaches told me straight up i need to put on size and get stronger to even think about 1st team rugby, i kinda knew it but no one had really made it an issue before, this really knocked my confidence because i always held my own on the field. and from then i didnt even feel fast anymore an i played terrible and only got a few games (id gone from being top try scorer, a real prospect to a bench warmer if i were lucky).
i were always trying to get bigger and stronger eversince i joined a gym, i got diet sheets and tips from coaches and ate more than they said but i dont have massive appetite. never really made any substantial gains, quite a bit of strength but very little bodyweight. but i dont want to take a year out in fear i may be forgotten like when i got injured, and since the season has finished iv found myself not doin much training and trying to find a some sort of miracle but i know there isnt one!! i really do!!
im tryin to have faith and work hard, lift big and eat big! it always only last about a week and i drop off (dosnt help i have no one to train with), i lose confidence. and im a cofident guy normally, theres people who dont like me because of it.
so iv gone from bein a awsomely fit fast guy, to bein a unfit probly not very fast guy wi low self asteam and im just not in the right frame of mind to go out on to the fied and run the ball in like a kamikazie piolet and tryin to put hits on big guys n make them think twice about running at the skinny guy!!!
and with the season fast approaching in april, i dont know what to do? if i go back like this iv got no chance. iv tried talkin to my coach but i get told to snap out of it.
now i know thats alot to take in, it just came out. iv been readin up on steroids quite a bit but is this really the way to go? beacuse i know it takes years otherwise and i dont have that time now, and does this make me a cheat (i dont know how many players are on gear if any) but i know it would give me confidence with the added size and strength and would i lose that much? and i know these are not a miracle but give me the kick up th arse i need
also what i would like to know is would goin to the docs and finding out about steroids be an idea and if i decide to take injectables would ther be someone i could go to to give me the injections (sorry if thats a stupid question). and iv read this argument quite a bit about Dbol only which is what i were thinking about but know been warded off it. now thinking deca only would this be ok with tamoxifen for pct? i know i can get them form a good source. but what kinda doses?
Now steroids are not something iv decide on yet, i do believe in good old hard work, so i would like to ask you your advice/what i should do. and also your stories if you have gone the same or something similar? im just really lost and cofused so any advice would be awsome!!!
Thankyou if you have read all this. i put ths on here because i know of the knowledge that on here all your replies will be greatly appreciated.
the come back will be posted. its goin to happen!!
i have attached images of myself below