I was in a similar situation right out of college. I wanted to get huge and muscly so I thought that the more I trained, the more supplements I took, and the more I ate, the faster I’d get to my goal. This amounted to a bunch of bullshit:
More food and more supplements = more money spent = feeling poor
Moore food and more supplements = feeling fat/bloated = feeling bad about your body
More training = less recovery = feeling tired, and mentally/emotionally miserable
Add all that up and you suddenly feel like you’re not making any progress, your goals feel further away than they are, and you hate yourself a little bit. But you’re still obsessed with meeting your goals, so you think that if you do everything even more, you’ll get there. This begins taking up all your thinking, and beings to alienate people around you (no time for them, too tired to deal with other people, etc).
I’m not going to tell you what I did to turn that around…because I think it’s different for each person. I will say that 2 hours of weight training 5x a week is way too much. Your TYPICAL lifting session shouldn’t really need more than 60 minutes (some being shorter, some being longer).
Despite what your goal is, you need to take time off from the gym (a couple weeks to a month) and just let your body and mind reset. Hang out with the family, go out with friends, meet a girl, read or play music…whatever your other hobbies are, do them. The number one thing I learned is that the gym CAN NOT BE THE ONLY THING YOU DO OUTSIDE WORK.
When you do get back in the gym, don’t do what you were doing. Instead, do half what you were doing. And then go home. I’m not saying this is the best way to increase size or whatever, but it will help you with your relationship with the gym.