Presentation : Hi everyone i’m a 30 years old guy from canada quebec. i have 14 years of consistent training i’m 5f8 220 pounds around 15% bf now. i did 5 shows in the past but no longer compete, i eat clean and cheat once every 5 days not in caloric deficit but i eat till im full, ive been on TRT (prescribed) for close to 2 years now i am prescribed 300mg delatestryl (testosterone enanthate) per week. before that i was doing it myself for close to 5 years. i have a long history of drug use in bodybuilding and competing. Doc tested me for low energy i was LOW ON TRT. so i was basicaly getting scammed with junk test… doc gave me 200mg a week for a testrun i came back 4 weeks later labs were stellar said i was over responding and over then norm in everything… but i said i had no libido still ( wich wasen’t true just wanted a higher dose and got it typical stupid bodybuilding mentality)
SO i’ve been on that since 1 year ever since. 6 months ago i started really realising i was starting to be a fucked up person always pissed hating everyone and everything never happy and insensible to gf emotions also sleeping like complete garbage. i lowered my dose to 280 then 270 felt a whole lot better then i started spliting my dose in half and injecting monday and thursday it ALSO made me feel better… libido has always been great tho but my temper is horrible its just sleep and motivation that is crap. and also i can cry in a pinch if i look at some emotional videos but i could kill the neighbours cat and eat it and feel nothing about it im just fucking insane double edged. i started thinking it might be estrogen and also the confinement makes it worse because you cant exercise… so i started taking aromasin a pill of 25mg split in 4 equals to like 6mg per injection and sleep and temper got better.
i’m thinking: would gradually reach a dosage of around 200mg per week be a good goal ? because every time i drop down to 250 too fast i feel weak and loose motivation and i’m scared to go down but i think it is caused by going estrogen dominant i have ran all that without anti estrogen for YEARS ! my guess is i’m filled with estrogen . and also would it be possible to be a person that need as high as 250 ? what are you personal opinions ? don’t sugar coat it i can take it. i’m aware that 300 is NOT trt ! and also going that high without an ai is quite stupid. i don’t care about the gym anymore i just want to feel great. and i know a lot of you guys know a lot more than i do evrytime i pin the day after i feel agresive pissed off and impatient… its always the day before my next pin that i feel amazing when my dosage has dissipated a lil bit. my guess is im taking way too much and i need a consistent ai. thanks for the advice i haven’t asked any advice in 7 years i’m sure i’m wrong in a lot of places i dont want to go back to doc because hes going to lower my dose but i cant anyway because we are in confinement and also i’m french i know my writing is really garbage i’m sorry lol