Hey there, people. So, yeah. 29 year old mom of two (both under 2). Short(ish) version: was over 340 lbs in July 2012 when I started my weight loss mission. By October 2013, I was 185. Got pregnant (something I was told was impossible) in November of '13, gave birth in July '14 at 260 lbs. In November '14, pregnant again at 240. By the time I had my son in July 2015, I was back up to 297!
So this time, I started at 297 in September and I’m currently around 248/250. Goal is to get back to the 180’s but I’ve been stuck at 250 for MONTHS. Haven’t worked out much because of a bad wrist injury and just let my food slip. But after many, many cortisone shots in my wrist over the last few months, the pain is gone. But the mindset is still there. I’m too tired/lazy/whatever you’re gonna call it to care about calorie or macro counting, strict logging. I have no free time during the days to just go workout, so my only option is a 4 am wake up to get it in before my kids wake up. Add in the stress of our current living situation (living with family while waiting to buy/move into our house this summer. Family is full of idiots and alcoholics) and you have a perfect recipe for an excuse, I guess.
So finally convinced Husband that we needed a vacuum sealer and have since bought over $300 worth of chicken breast (only lean meat I really like) and started back at my meal planning. Hoping to start daily workouts again this week (NOT a fan of 4 am wake ups though, so getting started has been rough). Also finally ordered a TRX system and that should be here next week, so that’s exciting but also intimidating. M But getting back to lifting in my gym is more exciting. If I could ever just do it.
Here’s the thing before everyone jumps down my throat. I know what I need to do. I’m not a moron. I just don’t know how. I don’t know how to force the morning wake ups and workouts. I don’t know how to stop mindlessly grazing all day. I don’t know how to get myself out of this. I’ve told myself a thousand times to “just do it” and “if you really wanted it, you’d make it happen”. But it’s bull. Because I DO want this again. I want to feel good, stop hurting, enjoy my days with my kids. I’m not even sure what I’m asking here. I’ve been told this forum is the best, the most supportive and knowledgeable.