Sorry for taking so long to respond! Toddlers and iPhones don't mix well when there's a tile floor around. But the replacement is here and now I can actually read and respond.
So firstly, thank you all so much for your answers and support, it means a lot. So, trying not to skip anything:
Started better planning my meals for this week. Even prepped 5 days of lunches, made a designated "snack bin" in the fridge with pre packaged snacks so I can't use "no time" as an excuse to grab whatever quick junk is around. And dinner is going to be just grilled chicken breast and veggies again, same as I did before when I lost so much. I just get bored with the same thing all the time, but I'll be able to get over it, I've done it before.
I also did come up with a quick routine for the suspension training, maybe 20-30 minutes, but it's quick enough to get done at even the butt crack of dawn and hits some of the big groups (chest, shoulders, upper back, glutes/hams, quads for now). Back to the noob stage of soreness/stiffness, but once I'm more accustomed to it, I hope to make it a much longer and more intense workout. I DO really, really want to get back to lifting. I miss it SO much and was still getting those noob gains by the time I stopped lifting over two years ago. I'm just having so much trouble forcing myself to get in the gym at the end of the day (morning isn't a possibility yet since the noise would wake the kids until we move and put the gym in the garage). I know I have a terrible "all or nothing" mindset, so accepting that even the quick 20 minutes every morning is enough for now just upsets me more.
Also, my husband is definitely around to help me out, but he's gone from 6 am to 530 pm at work, plus his job is a very physical one, so when he's home, I try to get everything done while he hangs out with the kids so he doesn't have to and can just rest his body a while. By the time I'm done all I need to do, it's time to get started on bedtime routines. So I'll try finding ways to get more done during the day whenever possible? That way I DO have time to hop in the gym for a while and it won't interfere with schedules. But with kids so young, it's impossible to say when I'll be able to get extra stuff done, so actually making a workout schedule (I used to do lifting Mon, Wed, Fri, and alternating Sat and Sun) is hard.
Either way, I do know the nutrition aspect is more important and I should focus on that, but as everyone knows, that part is harder. So I'm not excited about it, lol. But I look back at pictures of myself three years ago and 60 lbs less and with such a huge smile, I just get so upset. I WISH I was the type that was fueled by anger, but I'm just the opposite.