well I went to this party yesterday where everyone was drinking, but I don’t really like to drink… I mean don’t like to drink, don’t like to smoke or take drugs. This is also probably because of the bodybuilding discipline i’m building up but anyways I dont mind people drinking, its not like its my business anyway.
I feel kind of akward when you are the only sober person in a party where everyone else is wasted/f*cked up. i tried to make some friends; i tried to hook up with some chicks, but nothing happened, it was like they were not really into me. With all that being said, I’m starting to believe that i’m not really a party guy.
No matter my efforts to socialize with others, i cant connect with them. I’m normally a social person at school or even at work; people say that i’m interesting and funny person to listen to, but when it comes to parties it cant just work.The music is too loud, you can barely talk and hear, everyone is fcked up, and dont give a sht bout what you say and all that. I feel bad cause i’m so young; i’m supposed to hang out with my friends and have some fun, people might start thinking i’m asocial.