I’m a 27 year old male with Ankylosing Spondylitis and despite this a moderately successful amateur strongman competitor.
I’ve been back in school full time for the past year now and every day I’m barely getting by on fumes. I am exhausted all the time. My training, strength, and mobility have gone to shit from having to sit still in class 4 hours a day 5 days a week. I’m barely able to focus most days and really have only gotten by on my high IQ alone.
Energy drinks aren’t helping anymore. I’ve been on adhd meds in the past but because of the auto-immune disease they just end up frying out my cns and making it harder for me to recover.
This past semester I nearly failed due to this enormous case study I had to do and the amount of degrading busy work thrown at us on top of the regular class material. I just don’t possess the time or energy to waste sitting and typing up mundane useless papers. I fall asleep trying to read text books or do rote memorization so studying never gets done. I’ve invested a lot of time and money into this program and I’m not getting much out of it because I’m always drained.
I was first recomended modafinil/Modapharma by my neurologist a couple years ago for the soul sucking life draining fatigue and brain fog. When I asked the psychologist I’d been seeing for adhd and pain about it he had said he could only prescribe it for narcolepsy and sleep disorders or the insurance company wouldn’t cover it. Being dirt broke at the time I thought I was out of options.
Over the last two years though I kept hearing about modafinil, Modapharma, provigil, nuvigil, artvigil, waklert, etc and I’ve kept reseearching it. Now apparently it’s popular enough to easily get a hold of online for fairly cheap. Enough people have had such fantastic success with it for the past few years with next to no side effects it seems like a perfect solution for me. If I still had insurance I’d go get a script one way or another.
I am hell bent on trying it though. It’s absolutely infuriating not having the time or energy to realize my potential. I’m in a fantastic school and I consistently test in at least the 98th percentile on standardized intelligence tests yet everyone talks to me like I’m stupid because I’m so exhausted all the time and in so much pain the only thing I’m able to communicate to people is that I’ve run out of fucks to give and want to be left alone.
I have found a reputable .com site that’s offering a sample of modafinil, provigil, modapharma, artvigil, etc. I have high hopes for the product and intend to share my experience here and elsewhere if I can even be slightly more productive. I can’t provide a link to the site but it’ll be pretty easy to figure out which one. When the sample arrives I’ll update this each day with how it effects me with school, training, mood, energy, focus, motivation, etc. Anyone else struggling with chronic fatigue or pain or anyone else who’s tried modafinil please share your experience here as well.