So I did this cycle of--
450mg/week Test Propionate for 8 weeks
40mg ED Anavar for 6 weeks
0.5mg Arimidex EOD 8 weeks
Nolvadex 40mg 1 week, 20mg 2 following weeks.
I gained alot from the cycle, alot of strength, lost fat and gained a good amount of muscle. Ended up at a leaner 210lbs than when I started at 193lbs.
Lost a about 8-10 lbs during PCT, but almost all of it came back during the first month after finishing. Balls grew back to normal size and libido was very good and stayed that way for over a month after PCT. (After PCT I got a great deal of back acne that I've treated by taking alot of Vitamin B5 etc)
Then shit started to happen. I got the flu followed by throwing up sickness, was laying with a huge, huge fever for almost a week. I lost 17lbs or something during that week, and I really struggled to put it back on the following week only to end up sick once more. (I was working alot, had alot of shifts at work, including a 41 hour work weekend)
Following that I've gotten alot of it back again, about 12lbs. Strength and size is again good after some hard work but along with that I notice my libido has simply dropped and dropped.
I started doing 450-500mcg/day of GHRP to aid in the recovery and maybe restore my energy and therefore my libido also somewhat.
But the other day when I was gonna have sex with my girl I just totally switched off, I could not get my dick to function. Barely got it up, finished and since then I have nearly no sex drive.
I wake up with a boner some times, it can even be a really hard one. But it's really unreliable and right now I'm sitting here and it's like girls do not interest me at all.
What the hell? I mean, being that I get boners while I sleep etc. Could it just be a mental issue? I also feel like my testicles are a little bit smaller than normal, could it be that I got a serious shutdown/relapse from the 2+ weeks I was sick?